DAY 390

I see a man walking down the road of life with no aim, no fear, no passion to live. Somehow I feel he has lost everything but still in search of something. I see him walking beside the grounds where children play. He dont look at them. He dont even try to remember that once he was a child, he had dreams, he wanted to be someone but now he has no dreams, he dont want to be someone. He dont even want to be himself anymore.

I see a shine in his eyes. Oh! Did I say shine? No, its only tears that shine. I dont see him talking. He just keeps walking on roads with no aim at all. I know he is trying to run away from thoughts that are following him. Does he wants to run away from himself? Do you know any place where you can hide in this world fom yourself?

I tried to ask him things, tried to make him talk but no replies. He just keeps quiet. I see him turning into a rude person. Sometimes I see him looking at the sky like he wants some answers but then he dont find them.

Yesterday he spoke to me. He told me a few things. He prayed that may GOD never bless anyone with the type of luck he has been blessed with. Infect, he said that it is not luck but badluck. He even told me he is waiting for a day. When I asked him what day, he said that the day when it will end, when the breath will be no more, when his eyes wont see the world any longer, when the heartbeat will stop. The day when he will die, he waits for that one day.

I see that man everyday & I feel his pain. Where he came from, what made him like this is perhaps a long story but he is here. He is real. I meet him everyday & every night. He lives here... here... in me...