DAY 572

I had a dream today & it made me felt worry so I sent a SMS to my mom & then we had a conversation & all ok. She is all fine & healthy which was actually my concern. So I thank Allah for that. Also might get a chance to have a voice chat with her with cam perhaps next week.

Next Tuesday I have to appear in an educational exam & I really hope it will go fine. Although I have not completed my studies but I still hope for the best.

WikiLeaks is a new threat or perhaps a new way to create tension among all diplomatic channels. Not sure if every word of there is true but if this is a threat then why USA is not stopping or blocking the website. According to a news, there is nothing against Israel. So this means they are only publishing what they want to & against whom they want to. Therefore, I do believe that this is one way to make others fight while saving themselves from it. Still one more question, how come they purchased those classified documents? Who sold them? Why there are not arrests so far for selling those documents? Why the website is still accessible in almost every country except China who has now banned the website?

There was an interesting news yesterday. A woman has been now announced the owner of the Sun. Can you actually believe that? The Notary Public has even issued her the documents. Wow! Bunch of jerks out there. Now she wants every one to pay tax for using or having benefits from the SUN. I will only pay if I will get the sunlight at nights too. Will she be able to do that? She should coz it’s her son... oh! I mean SUN now. I even think now she should leave the planet Earth and as she own the SUN, she should start living there as well. Bloody stupid people.

Pakistan PM has vowed that killers of Benazir Bhutto would soon be exposed with the help of the workers of the Pakistan People's Party. Is that a statement or a joke? They would need help of the workers? What happened to the Police, Intelligence & other non-working departments? Is this a PM or a joker? Almost 3 years for them to complete & he will soon expose them. How soon? Maybe 3-4 years more? I think once they will finish their useless 5 years of rubbish Government, they will ask for votes on this line. We will soon expose the killers. Just give us a chance. We were almost to that point. This is certainly a joke. I wonder how come still people listen to this bullshit & keep themselves calm during these foolish & waste of time speeches.

DAY 566

Two days back someone emailed me & asked me to upload my recent pictures on Facebook. As I had been getting these kinds of requests too much so I did made my album viewable for my friends. I had my photos already there but I was hiding them. People were able to see my childhood pictures. So the day I gave access to my photos, I had some really nice & great comments on those. I don’t know why but people started resembling me with Bollywood actors like Hrithik Roshan & Abhishek Bachchan. This is not the first time it happened. People did even tell me that I resemble Junaid Jamshed (A former Pakistani Pop singer). I really have no idea why they had been resembling me with them but I would honestly want to thank from the bottom of my heart to each & every friend for posting such nice & wonderful comments. To be very honest, I am not that good looking at all but it is their love that has made them post such wonderful comments. Thank you once again.

The unpredictable Pakistani Cricket team did manage to draw the test series with South Africa. At one stage they were about to loose the test by an inning but as they do actually play good sometimes, so they did & now the series has ended in a draw.

The weather in this part of the country is now too cold at nights. Riding a bike at nights is like having a trip inside a refrigerator. Nowadays if I do not reply on SMS, please do understand my condition as sometimes the tips of my fingers get frozen & they do not allow me to play around with the mobile. I already have a bad reputation regarding late replies on SMS. Now I have a new excuse :)

According to the news, 213 power pilferers caught red-handed in Lahore while stealing electricity. Now I have a question. How come one can be caught “alive” while stealing electricity & how come his/her hands turned red from all that? Any bright ideas folks?? :-)

DAY 564

Saturday & Sunday was boring as most of my time was spent doing nothing. Did visit a friend’s house for an hour & half yesterday but except that I stayed inside my house as it’s too cold out there anyway.

One of my friends messaged me saying that if I would not chat with my mom, he will not speak to me. Hmmmm… He is my cute friend. Well! Unfortunately my mom called & told me that voice chat will not be possible this week & hope we will get a chance perhaps next week or any other week day. So have to wait for that now. Almost after 6 years, it will be the first time she will be able to see me on the cam. During this time, we did have a few telephonic conversations but that’s it. As she do not have knowledge of computers, so my younger sister will have to assist her in this matter. Hope to have a chat with her as well inshaAllah.

Had a very busy week except Saturday & Sunday. Even today was very busy in the office. I am actually enjoying it now. Too much work keeps me busy & my mind stays in one direction. The EID was really boring but I had busy days in the office so it went all fine.

The Minister of Religious Affairs is not taking any responsibility for the mismanagement during Hajj. These are our religious men. According to him he was unaware of all of it. Then what is the use of him being there? These crazy people don’t even feel ashamed & they don’t even resign. How can he say that he is not responsible for it? All what they want is cash & nothing more. Regarding the country, citizens and duties, to hell with them…

DAY 561

Internet is back at my residence & hopefully I will be chatting with my mom on this Saturday or Sunday. Now just need to arrange timings with her. Hope it all goes well. She wants to see me on the cam. I am not sure if she will enjoy seeing me but I know she is my mother & she will love watching me although I have a very normal face. Me not handsome nor good looking at all but for every mother, her child is the best at least in appearance coz love is not with the body or face, love is a connection between souls.

Past 2-3 days including the EID day, I kept acting so strange & kept quiet. I did not enjoy any moment or did not celebrate it. Why? I really have no idea but life does not stop. Life keeps going & going.

Yesterday someone again complained that I am changed as I am not sharing any part of my life with him. He is one of my close friends. Unfortunately I have no answer to that question as it was not even a question. It was just a complaint. Even my family members hate me now for being changed & acting so strange.

Someone on FB gave me some really nice comments while describing me which was a real surprise to me as I really don’t think that I am that good the way she described me. I’m really thankful to her for those nice & great comments. Someone else also wrote some nice things about me during a conversation on comments while chatting with one of my family members. I’m really thankful to all of you that actually respect me & praise me. Really have no words to thank you.

Last April – May I did plan to visit Karachi again in December when I came back from a really entertaining & memorable trip but now I will not be doing that due to lots of reasons. Perhaps some other time if I live & if I get the chance again.

Pakistan Woman Cricket Team created history on Friday by winning against Bangladesh. It was their first Gold medal. I really believe now it is time to replace our National Cricket Team with Woman Cricket Team as at least they do win a tournament.

On EID, Pakistani government had security on high alert to avoid any terrorist activities but every time when I passed a check post I noticed that the gunman appointed was not even alert. He was not even watching the traffic that was directed to that check post. He was either watching the other police officers who were busy in taking bribes from citizens or he was looking around. So I kept wondering when he will be alert. Will that be once he will be shot? I guess so. Even during EID days I noticed that the number of police officers appointed at the check post were less than in normal days. So when the government announces high alert, it means they request the citizens to be high alert and save themselves from the surroundings & don’t depend on the lazy government for any sort of security. The security is only for the jerks that we vote for. It is all drama & nothing more. I am even 100% sure that the bomb blast that took place at the CID building in Karachi, the area considered to be red alert (A stage higher than high alert) was a plan to destroy evidence & paperwork that must have been stored inside that building. If that is red alert than I am sure now you can easily understand what can be done by terrorists in high alerts.

DAY 559

Last night I spoke to my mother after a very long time. It was nice to hear her voice. We did plan to do voice chat with webcam on Saturday but unfortunately my internet at home is not working now & I have been informed that it will be fixed till Monday as some equipment was burnt & could not be replaced as shops are closed for EID holidays.

Did not have a good day today. I am not me today. Been acting so strange. I have not been talking to anyone even in the family & ignoring chats & SMS conversations. I don’t know what is gone wrong with me. I just feel not talking to anyone at all. First time ever on EID I have acted so strange. I really don’t feel the happiness of this moment anymore. Maybe I have completely died inside me. I am not sure but something inside me is definitely wrong. Even a close friend complained today & said that I have closed myself in me & I am not even sharing anything with him which makes him concern, angry & sad at the same time as he feels I don’t trust him anymore. It is not about trust. It is just that I don’t want anyone to know who I am & what I am anymore. Even sometimes I don’t even know myself that who am I.

Anyway… I feel like I am a stranger in this world. So EID MUBARAK to all my fellow Muslims from this stranger.

DAY 558

Extremely sad as one of my FB friend’s mother passed away on Sunday morning. I feel so sorry for her & I really pray that Allah give her & her family power to fight these tough moments of life. Also I pray that her mother may rest in peace.

According to my last blog, my prediction came true as we never completed the trip in that time framed designed by my friend. It took us almost 16 hours to complete it. I said 15 hours but it took 16. So I was almost near & again my prediction came true. When we started the journey I did tell my friends that I have predicted on the blog regarding the timings.

So we started the journey at 6am & ended at 10pm. When went to Lahore to drop someone. I had to meet an online friend but unfortunately due to the death of my FB friend’s mother, we were not able to meet. Both of them are relatives & I really wish I could have been there with them. I know words can’t take away the pain but my presence would have been a support to them. We just left Lahore within minutes after reaching there & dropping a friend. We went to Hafizabad as my friend had to pick his laptop from there & then we returned back after having lunch there. During our way to Lahore we did escape an accident that could have been much worse if it had actually taken place. We just missed it all by inches & only got the side mirror damaged. I still believe this all happened because the minute we started the journey I did recite “Aytal Kursi” which did save us from all that. So for the death… Better luck next time.

DAY 555

At last I did finish some unfinished business and coz of that my day was a busy. Normally Saturdays are slow & lazy for me but I had to finish 8 assignments and it took me almost 5 days to finish that & I had plans to submit them today so I could leave for Lahore tomorrow. Fortunately I did it & now I can visit Lahore plus Hafizabad with a relaxed mind.

The trip is planned by a friend of mine & he planned it in such a way that we will be running against time. It will be like rushing to both the cities & returning in 12 hours which is not possible but he thinks it is which I am sure will not happen. It will at least take 15 hours to do what we all have planned.

Have to visit Lahore as I have to meet an FB male friend & planning to spend sometime with him. Maybe lunch as well. He called me today and said that he wants me to visit his home but construction work is in progress at his place. Also as time will be short so I won't be able to do that but inshaAllah next time. From Lahore we have to visit Hafizabad as we have to pick a laptop for my friend. So all this in 12 hours, I don't think so. Let's see if my prediction comes true regarding timings.

As I have to start my journey to these cities 05:30 in the morning, I feel it will be a pleasant journey & I am planning to enjoy moments of it especially with my FB friend. Another achievement in this section as I have been lucky to meet almost 90% friends I made online.

DAY 553

The plan of visiting Lahore is still pending as some issues are not sorted & I am still not sure if I will be able to visit Lahore or not. Already planned to meet a FB friend there but still not sure if I could visit him this week. I can only confirm to him on Saturday. I & my friends also have to visit Hafizabad and I am still not sure if I will be able to accompany them.

Past two days were extremely busy in the office & I actually enjoyed them. Hope to have more busy days & hope to enjoy every moment of it. Actually it is not enjoyment. It is my brains involved in something & me forgetting all the pain of life for at least some time.

My friend whose SIM was blocked has actually managed to unblock it but I will not further write on this subject as someone reminded me to mind my own business. I wonder why I did not ask what business is that person talking about as I am not a businessman. Do I really own a business that I am unaware of? Is someone running a business under my name? Oh GOD! Who is he/she? Too many frauds nowadays so this is to confirm that I am not related to any business and I should not be held responsible for any sorts of debts. Regarding profits, well! I don’t mind if you are planning to share it with me :)

DAY 551

A very busy weekend as I planned. Even had a busy Monday. From the past fifteen days, I have learnt a few things that being lazy & not doing work on time can actually be harmful as well as expensive. Hope I would not make these mistakes again and hope GOD will help me in every step of life. I had to finish my assignments which I am still unable to do & I really hope I will be. The submission dates have passed but I am still a bit hopeful that I might get lucky to submit them. Let’s hope & pray I would say.

Two of my friends did a blunder after a long time. Well! This one was interesting one. One of them had some problem with his phone. When he sent a sms to one of the other friend, it was not one that she received. It kept sending the same sms so many times that she got irritated. She complained and he said block my sms for some time. She did by sending a block message to her service provider & they considering it a complaint forwarded it and eventually the sim got blocked. Now she was complaining that I only asked them to block the sms. So I asked her, “Are you receiving the sms?” She said no coz sim is blocked. I said to her, ”Here you go. You wanted no sms, so now no sms.” Now she feels guilty but I don’t think she should be coz it was a joint decision of both.

Life is not going the way I wanted. The paths are strange & I am walking to an unknown destination. There was a time when I could see my destination and had no path to reach it but I tried & somehow I did manage to find paths and walked to it & when I was almost near to it, suddenly all changed. Now I can see my destination near to me but no paths for me to walk on. In other words, I stand helpless at a closed end path and no where to go.

One of our Pakistani Cricketer ran away. I think he should have been part of the Olympic team instead of the Cricket team. We actually do need some good runners there as we still have no gold medals from that end. I still don’t think he made the right move coz according to him, he loves his country but running away & planning of seeking asylum from some other country, where is the LOVE then?

DAY 547

How many lucky days do you get in life? Well! Life is not lucky for me but some hours of it are lucky. Some moments are always greatest & some are remarkable that are not meant to be forgotten. Well1 Have a few moments with me as well but I am not planning to share those moments here coz those moments are priceless & this blog is free to read. I am planning to talk about a free Pizza especially for me from an office colleague & free Rice with Kabbab from another colleague. Why? Well! Pizza was there for my being honest & Rice were there for my being honest again. Regarding the last honest, honestly I don’t know why the rice were there. See I am being honest but for the first honest, few days back someone asked me to describe her & she wanted my honest opinion & told me if I would be honest, pizza will be the deal. Now how many times you get rewarded for being honest? Well! Hard to find such a story but its true coz I will never type anything on my blog which will be a false statement. So guys & gales, start being honest coz one day or other, you will be rewarded.

Weekend starts tomorrow & I plan to keep myself busy. Some unfinished jobs need my attention. So I plan to finish them InshaAllah.

One of the girls in the office asked another girl in front of me that why am I being liked by everyone in the office. She was surprised coz when she joined the office in last Ramadan, everyone told her that I am a very nice person. Then the other girl said a few good things about me & I was surprised. I actually don’t like when people praise me especially in front of me. So I told both the ladies that I am not good at all but deep inside me I felt happiness that at least people do praise me even if I am not around. Awww… I would like to thank them all through this medium for considering me a good person which I actually don’t consider myself but really thankful to them.

DAY 546

Yesterday one of the friends did come to me & apologized as I did show my anger & told them all that do not ask for advices anymore if you can’t even follow. So apology accepted.

Let me make myself very clear that I don’t say I am a very wise guy who can always give great advises. I never advertise myself in this way. It was them coming to me for advises & it was me providing them without any interest & with full honestly & with a bit of my observation & experiences. It is always up to them to accept it or reject it but when they reject it & then it all happens the way I told them, then why they cry? Then why complains? This is the point where I feel anger that if they love to be hurt then they should not ask for advices. Anyway, up to them.

My little baby cat was washed with shampoo but still the color is there. It has faded but not removed completely. They still need a few more baths with shampoo. The difficult part is to give them a bath. They hate water & they keep slipping from the hands while you try to rub shampoo. It is unfortunate for me still not to find that jerk who colored my cat & fortunate for him/her as not found yet. Otherwise, it would have been a wonderful day for me & a worse one for that jerk.

Interesting news:
Crackdown against illegal Pakistani immigrants in UK

Why only Pakistanis???? What about others???

This proves how much Pakistanis are now being hated all over the world just because everyone thinks that we Pakistanis are nothing but terrorist thanks to some idiots calling themselves “Muslims” & killing innocent people. Why the World doesn’t think that 90% when they attack, they kill Pakistanis? So then who come we are terrorists? We are the victims but then we are Muslims too. So according to them, we have two problems. We are Pakistanis & Muslims and this gives them all the rights in the world to discriminate us. Now where are the Human Rights Organizations??

DAY 545

Yesterday I discovered that people living around me as my neighbors are the most stupid and bloody jerks I might ever come across in my life again. Someone grabbed my little cat which is originally white in color with little brown patches & that bustard painted her with stupid blue & purple spray colors and thought by doing this now he/she owns the cat. What the hell is wrong with these jerks? Where the hell were they when brain was being distributed? As me & my family still don’t know who the hell did this, so I cannot punch his/her face but I really would love to know. I have asked the family to use shampoo to clean her as these animals lick their body to keep themselves clean & the color could be dangerous for health as the paint was coming out easily. When I rubbed my hand, my hands were colored & I wish I could know who the hell was behind this. I would have forced him/her to be naked & I would have colored that stupid jerk and then would asked, so now, how does it feels? DAMN!!! I’m extremely angry.

I am also angry with few friends of mine. They have been taking advices from me on some matters but they don’t even follow any of it & after certain period of time I find them on the same track & on the same point. So if they love to be hurt, then please go on. I DON’T CARE. I’m done with this. I just can’t waste my time on something that is useless. No more advices. People DO NOT ASK ME FOR ANY SORT OF ADVICE ANYMORE coz you won’t be getting any. I never said I always give great advices but it was not even me who ever asked them to come to me for advices. They started it, I’m ending it.

DAY 544

I really hate this. I trust someone, I share something with him. I request him not to share but that person always do this. I have now decided not to share anything with that person about anyone. This is not the first time this has happened but yes this is the last time this has happened as now there won’t be any sort of information shared.

2 days of no internet at home & I was sleeping early but was not waking up early. Now internet is back but still I will not be getting up early as I don’t follow this quote:

Early to bed early to rise, makes a man healthy wealthy & wise.

I don’t understand this quote. To be successful sometimes we have to work hard & I have seen wise people even working late night. Either they are not wise or they are not men. So who created this quote than? Was it some lady?

The appeal of the two Pakistani cricketers was rejected without any reason by the ICC. This is really ridiculous. I really don’t know what happened to the case with Scotland Yard as well. No news from that end. So if still no proof against the players then why have they been suspended? If there is proof then why not being shared with the public? If this would have been a European team, they would have never been suspended until they were proved. This proves that we have some greatest jerks in the management of Pakistan Cricket Board and why not? We have the most corrupt person as the President so what else are we going to expect from others in the government. After all this, they still say we are trying & working hard. I wonder what are they working on. The Prime Minister just said today that he will not dissolve the assembly. In other words he just said that they will not work at all & they will most certainly not improve.

DAY 543

I don’t know why but again this is happening to me. It feels like I go blank & have no feelings or no words inside me. This keeps happening to me after certain period of time & I suddenly go blank while chatting, sending SMS or talking to someone. I start feeling like I have nothing inside me to share any longer & I just put myself in silent mode. So friends & foes please just don’t think I am ignoring you coz actually I am exactly doing this. So don’t think, believe it.

I have reduced my connections with the outside world. I have started keeping myself away from lots of things, people & events. Guess I don’t enjoy these anymore & most certainly I am converting into a very boring sort of person. Hope at last this time I will be on the top in this list. I do think I will manage to write a few lines here coz when I visit this medium & when I start writing, I do end up creating sentences here. So I do hope I won’t go blank here.

Planning to visit Lahore this month as a friend of mine has some important work on his week shoulders while I plan to meet a friend from Facebook who I never met before. Oh! Let me clarify “A male friend”. Ah! Much better now. Let’s see how well that meeting goes. I do consider myself lucky in this sense that I have met almost everyone who became my friend online. Well! Not everyone but 90% of them. Some of them enjoyed my company & some of them planned not to meet me ever again as they must have hated my boring personality or maybe my sense of humor.

EID is not that far and once again as usual I don’t plan to do any shopping for myself. This I do every year so nothing new in that.

My blogs are now being posted on Facebook. Wow! They actually fixed it & that was fast. Well! Not that fast but at least they did it. So now those who were not been able to read my blogs on Facebook, they can and those who never wanted to read my blogs, even they can. I know, I know that’s not fair but nothing is fair in Love & war. Well! To be very honest, nothing is fair nowadays. So sue me, I don’t mind.

Before I end this, a very interesting SMS I received:

An apple everyday
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is not affordable today.

So even now eating an apple daily can bring the doctor near to you. To much expenditures gives you a powerful heart attack :)