DAY 561

Internet is back at my residence & hopefully I will be chatting with my mom on this Saturday or Sunday. Now just need to arrange timings with her. Hope it all goes well. She wants to see me on the cam. I am not sure if she will enjoy seeing me but I know she is my mother & she will love watching me although I have a very normal face. Me not handsome nor good looking at all but for every mother, her child is the best at least in appearance coz love is not with the body or face, love is a connection between souls.

Past 2-3 days including the EID day, I kept acting so strange & kept quiet. I did not enjoy any moment or did not celebrate it. Why? I really have no idea but life does not stop. Life keeps going & going.

Yesterday someone again complained that I am changed as I am not sharing any part of my life with him. He is one of my close friends. Unfortunately I have no answer to that question as it was not even a question. It was just a complaint. Even my family members hate me now for being changed & acting so strange.

Someone on FB gave me some really nice comments while describing me which was a real surprise to me as I really don’t think that I am that good the way she described me. I’m really thankful to her for those nice & great comments. Someone else also wrote some nice things about me during a conversation on comments while chatting with one of my family members. I’m really thankful to all of you that actually respect me & praise me. Really have no words to thank you.

Last April – May I did plan to visit Karachi again in December when I came back from a really entertaining & memorable trip but now I will not be doing that due to lots of reasons. Perhaps some other time if I live & if I get the chance again.

Pakistan Woman Cricket Team created history on Friday by winning against Bangladesh. It was their first Gold medal. I really believe now it is time to replace our National Cricket Team with Woman Cricket Team as at least they do win a tournament.

On EID, Pakistani government had security on high alert to avoid any terrorist activities but every time when I passed a check post I noticed that the gunman appointed was not even alert. He was not even watching the traffic that was directed to that check post. He was either watching the other police officers who were busy in taking bribes from citizens or he was looking around. So I kept wondering when he will be alert. Will that be once he will be shot? I guess so. Even during EID days I noticed that the number of police officers appointed at the check post were less than in normal days. So when the government announces high alert, it means they request the citizens to be high alert and save themselves from the surroundings & don’t depend on the lazy government for any sort of security. The security is only for the jerks that we vote for. It is all drama & nothing more. I am even 100% sure that the bomb blast that took place at the CID building in Karachi, the area considered to be red alert (A stage higher than high alert) was a plan to destroy evidence & paperwork that must have been stored inside that building. If that is red alert than I am sure now you can easily understand what can be done by terrorists in high alerts.