What a week I had. After like 7 years I had a long chat with my little sis who is no more little but a mother of one cute little girl. I did get a chance to speak to that angel & it was fun. The talks with my sis & some cute discussions on Saturday were memorable.
Than came Sunday & me & some of my FB friends gathered on Skype for a conversation chat & it was a great experience & fun as well. I felt like I could feel them all around me & the way we kept joking, teasing & singing was truly fun. Hope to do that every weekend from now on.
But after that it all started. Fights, fights & some more fights. I think I should have been a wrestler or a boxer as the way I have to face verbal fights every week is as much as hard as being in the ring especially when the opposite person is a female. You know it’s never easy to win from a female in a verbal fight. So Sunday night it started & it kept going till last night. Meanwhile Tuesday another friend of mine joined the fight & then I was 2 against one but it was fun. Thanks GOD it ended coz the more I run away from discussion, the more I get into it.
Anger is my best enemy. When I am in anger, oh GOD!!! I get scared from myself. This is why a number of times I have asked my friends & today via my blog I ask them again, if I am in anger, just leave me alone & don’t involve me in discussions coz they can convert into disaster. This is one reason I avoid all sorts of talks during anger. So if I say I’m angry, you say ok & go :-D
One of my sis is now a Doctor (Ph.D). Wow! That is cool. I even saw her pics & wow, she is cooling beautiful. Unfortunately, only beautiful from outer-side. I wish she could be as beautiful from inside as well. As being my sis, I wish her all the best & hope she joins the family too. Not only coz she is my little sis but only coz she was one year younger & I had my most childhood memories with her coz being of my age, ok one year less, I was close to her.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
DAY 981
Me in extreme pain today. I had a page on FB “Oye Chawal Oye” which is no more there. Reasons are unknown. Somehow it is deleted, either by FB themselves or by a hacker. I gave so much to that page. It was like a place where I lived. Worked hard on it & kept it running & in a click of a second they take it away from me. My feelings can’t be expressed here as I had a place to spread smile & now my own smile is gone. Thank you who ever did that. Guess smile was never important. Anyway, no more interest left in Facebook.
Yes! My being quiet & sad wont change a thing, agree but what to say, is I don’t know. I know people would be thinking I’m acting like a child but for me it was a death of a world. For so many years I have been hiding myself behind jokes & not expressing my real self just so that people all over the world can gather at one spot & smile. Although I had never been perfect in it. I have hurt a number of people at the same time so it must be my time to get hurt. Yes! It was noting but a page but a page where I had lots of memories. A page where I had a control. A page where I was known. A page where I met so many wonderful people & a page which is no more. Guess, I am acting like a child.
Well! Life never ends due to a lose but life does end at one stage. Maybe I will start all over again with my admin friends or maybe I won’t. Damn… I don’t know what to write today…
Yes! My being quiet & sad wont change a thing, agree but what to say, is I don’t know. I know people would be thinking I’m acting like a child but for me it was a death of a world. For so many years I have been hiding myself behind jokes & not expressing my real self just so that people all over the world can gather at one spot & smile. Although I had never been perfect in it. I have hurt a number of people at the same time so it must be my time to get hurt. Yes! It was noting but a page but a page where I had lots of memories. A page where I had a control. A page where I was known. A page where I met so many wonderful people & a page which is no more. Guess, I am acting like a child.
Well! Life never ends due to a lose but life does end at one stage. Maybe I will start all over again with my admin friends or maybe I won’t. Damn… I don’t know what to write today…
Monday, January 2, 2012
DAY 971
Sometimes I wakeup & feel like I have lost something. Maybe a dream or maybe another day of my life but later when I kept thinking deeper, I found it. It was my beauty sleep :-D
So you thought I will be one of my emotional blogs again? No no, I am a sensitive & emotional person but not always. Mostly I am bad one.
Deep inside me I do have a wish, a wish that I don’t know how to achieve. I did share with a friend & did ask for help but I don’t know if I have lost the chance to achieve it or not. Even the same wish is of my friend but both of us really don’t know which path to walk & which way to achieve it. Don’t you dare take this in a romantic way. No! It’s not about love, romance or a girl. It’s more of a serious issue. NO! Not even marriage… Oh! You and your brains :P. Anyway what ever the wish is, I ask you all to pray so I can achieve it. It is a beautiful wish but I will not share :P :P. I love suspense so you taste it too :D
Nowadays it’s too cold out here or even in here. So even walking outside can freeze your hands, beware :D. By the way, I came to know that entering the New Year government is giving us a gift with increase in tariff of CNG + gas. Wow!!! Thank you so much. Would love that, wont we? I mean what else we want as a country? We don’t want light we don’t want gas, hey, how about we don’t want you the government, can you please process that as well you nincompoops. Already we don’t have electricity in the country but we have huge bills for don’t know what & now it will be the gas. Every month the bills I pay, makes me ask the same question again and again, when did I get all these units??? At the moment I came to know that there are people out on the streets blocking the highways, main roads in anger & mostly traffic is blocked but not to worry my fellow citizens. Very soon there will be no gas & no cars on the streets so no more traffic jam issue. Always be positive :-D
So you thought I will be one of my emotional blogs again? No no, I am a sensitive & emotional person but not always. Mostly I am bad one.
Deep inside me I do have a wish, a wish that I don’t know how to achieve. I did share with a friend & did ask for help but I don’t know if I have lost the chance to achieve it or not. Even the same wish is of my friend but both of us really don’t know which path to walk & which way to achieve it. Don’t you dare take this in a romantic way. No! It’s not about love, romance or a girl. It’s more of a serious issue. NO! Not even marriage… Oh! You and your brains :P. Anyway what ever the wish is, I ask you all to pray so I can achieve it. It is a beautiful wish but I will not share :P :P. I love suspense so you taste it too :D
Nowadays it’s too cold out here or even in here. So even walking outside can freeze your hands, beware :D. By the way, I came to know that entering the New Year government is giving us a gift with increase in tariff of CNG + gas. Wow!!! Thank you so much. Would love that, wont we? I mean what else we want as a country? We don’t want light we don’t want gas, hey, how about we don’t want you the government, can you please process that as well you nincompoops. Already we don’t have electricity in the country but we have huge bills for don’t know what & now it will be the gas. Every month the bills I pay, makes me ask the same question again and again, when did I get all these units??? At the moment I came to know that there are people out on the streets blocking the highways, main roads in anger & mostly traffic is blocked but not to worry my fellow citizens. Very soon there will be no gas & no cars on the streets so no more traffic jam issue. Always be positive :-D
Sunday, January 1, 2012
DAY 970
First day of New Year & I think I should write something down at least to welcome this year. Although I don’t think it would be better than before but as always keep your hopes high no matter what, even if u live in the basement :P.
Last year I found so many loving people. Some of them left me behind as they were in a hurry & some of them still bearing my existence. The ones that are gone, I wish them happiness where ever they are & the ones that came into my life, hope you stay happy & healthy. Like every day passes, people passes by. Some leaves a reflection on your life & some leaves you in depression with empty heart & soul :D… but… sooner or later everyone has to leave. Who knows this year might be my turn.
So do I have a resolution for this year? No, I don’t waste time in this stuff coz 99% of us will only plan but won’t act or change. I think I fall in 01% that don’t even plan :D. Yeah yeah, I know I’m unique :D.
So what did I lose & what did I gain in the last year? I won my family back. Yes! The ones that I lost 8 years back, I got them back. I lost a few loving people that were close to my heart but they had to go & I still am not aware of their reasons as they never considered me important enough to explain :D. Guess they were never mine. I did travel a lot within the country. My trip to Tando Adam to meet my Mother after 7 years, my trip to Lahore, Sahiwal, Okara to meet online friends was a memorable. A few friends even visited my city & had a chance to meet them for the first time was a great experience. The visit of my mother & my sister with my cute nieces was a brilliant moment to remember and even my first meeting with my brother in law right here in my city. I think I had a great year. So what if I lost a few, I still have so many more around me to loose :D :P (just kidding). Nah! Don’t want to lose anyone.
Long holiday I had that included Christmas & New Year will now end as one more day to go & then back to office with normal routine work on Tuesday. So before I end this blog, one prayer that I want to make and that is that maybe I had a great year but my country did not so please ALLAH I request you to take away the burdens of corrupt politicians on us. Yes yes, I mean it’s time they should expire or if I should say in direct words………. die :-D.
Last year I found so many loving people. Some of them left me behind as they were in a hurry & some of them still bearing my existence. The ones that are gone, I wish them happiness where ever they are & the ones that came into my life, hope you stay happy & healthy. Like every day passes, people passes by. Some leaves a reflection on your life & some leaves you in depression with empty heart & soul :D… but… sooner or later everyone has to leave. Who knows this year might be my turn.
So do I have a resolution for this year? No, I don’t waste time in this stuff coz 99% of us will only plan but won’t act or change. I think I fall in 01% that don’t even plan :D. Yeah yeah, I know I’m unique :D.
So what did I lose & what did I gain in the last year? I won my family back. Yes! The ones that I lost 8 years back, I got them back. I lost a few loving people that were close to my heart but they had to go & I still am not aware of their reasons as they never considered me important enough to explain :D. Guess they were never mine. I did travel a lot within the country. My trip to Tando Adam to meet my Mother after 7 years, my trip to Lahore, Sahiwal, Okara to meet online friends was a memorable. A few friends even visited my city & had a chance to meet them for the first time was a great experience. The visit of my mother & my sister with my cute nieces was a brilliant moment to remember and even my first meeting with my brother in law right here in my city. I think I had a great year. So what if I lost a few, I still have so many more around me to loose :D :P (just kidding). Nah! Don’t want to lose anyone.
Long holiday I had that included Christmas & New Year will now end as one more day to go & then back to office with normal routine work on Tuesday. So before I end this blog, one prayer that I want to make and that is that maybe I had a great year but my country did not so please ALLAH I request you to take away the burdens of corrupt politicians on us. Yes yes, I mean it’s time they should expire or if I should say in direct words………. die :-D.
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