Wednesday, April 28, 2010

DAY 356

This is really strange now. It’s like I’m loosing the power of writing. It is now being very difficult for me to write even a few lines. I can’t SMS, I can’t write my blog. This is really strange. I used to be the one who could continue a conversation on chats or SMS for hours & hours. I had the power to pop-up topics during conversations so even the other person doesn’t get bored but now after a few SMS or lines, I find myself blank. I feel like I can’t SMS or chat further & I just quit. I don’t know what’s going on & why but now my friends are thinking I am ignoring them which is somehow true because I am not answering every SMS & after a while I just quit sending SMS so yes in a sense I am ignoring. I do apologies to all but I just don’t know why all this is happening. Just to write these lines, it almost took me 20 minutes.

The weather once again is absolutely fantastic. The rain showers last night turned it into romantic & heart touching. This time summer is some how interesting as a few days it gets hot & then suddenly it rains & drains all the hotness of the weather.

There I go blank again. Don’t know what to write or what to say. I can’t understand why it is happening. I have been writing blogs since long now. It is almost one year & next month on my birthday it will be exactly one year of writing here. Wow! I know I had skipped lots of days but somehow I did manage to keep writing. So upcoming birthday I will celebrate my blog’s anniversary as well.

Two of my friends wanted to throw a surprise party for me on my birthday but somehow the news leaked & I have told them that I might not celebrate my birthday as I never do that. I don’t cut cake or put candles there. I still remember last year only 3-4 people congratulated me on by birthday. Let’s see what happens this time. By the way why do we celebrate this day in our lives? We were not involved in the process of birth. We were the ones that did nothing at that time. If we look it this way, we should be sad on this day as one more year of our life is gone & we still have not achieved anything in life. At least I did not. I still find myself at a zero position in life. Lots of goals & not a single path for me to walk on. It is the time when life is spending me & me not spending life.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

DAY 349

Respected readers of my blog, you are kindly requested to pray for my friend’s brother who is extremely sick & is in the hospital. Please pray that he gets better & healthier as soon as possible. Who knows maybe your pray might help him fight the fever & pain.

The weather here is extremely nice, beautiful & romantic. Light showers after some pauses made it a bit cold at night. This gifted weather has reduced the hot summer & now you can enjoy every moment outside.

The 1Rs. coin has lost its touch that is lying on the keyboard of my office as it is not giving me any luck so I have decided to give it away to poor. Well! It’s just a joke that a coin will give me any luck. Nothing can bring luck but a human. So I have my luck beside me as I have great people with me every minute of my life. Thank you Allah for blessing me with some great & loving people. Yes! I am lucky mashaAllah.

The internet at my home is still down & the bloody Wateen has already taken a month to restore it. I used to feel that there services were awesome but guess what, I was wrong. So anyone that has been referred by me to Wateen, please accept my apology for pointing out these lazy buggers. I will be applying for the new service but even that will take some time & I really hate this coz internet is a blessing I would say. My weekends were all been spent online but now I just have to either sit in front of the TV screen & keep changing the channels or I sleep. Damn! I hate Wateen for wasting my whole month & kept promising me of restoring the services soon.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

DAY 348

What a fantastic & romantic weather out there. WOW! I love it. A few hours back I was on my bike towards my office & I was feeling like flying in air with cold breeze hugging me & little drops of water kissing my skin. The speed of the wind was so fast that it was getting difficult to drive the bike. It was getting out of control & at some stage I was against the direction of the wind & the speed of the bike was like 10km/h coz the wind was not letting me travel faster than that. The minute I entered the office, it started raining fast. Still I can hear the voice of thunder & I wish I could go out & enjoy the rain. This weather is a gift from GOD in damn hot summer & bloody load-shedding. I wonder why all the load is on poor public & no load on stupid selected government high officials.

In the morning when I woke up, I heard noises of ladies fighting in my neighbor & men of the house just sitting & commenting but doing nothing. Later through my powerful sources (Ladies of my family) I came to know that one of the ladies in that house is just being treated as a servant coz she has committed a crime of being the wife of the youngest brother in the house. By the way her husband is the one who is supporting 90% of the expenses of this joint family. So the fight was one lady against the rest of the family. According to my sources for the past three days, everyone is ignoring her & not even respecting her. Even the kids in the family are doing the same. What a wonderful way to teach your children & then later these parents complain that our kids don’t respect us. How would they? You were the one teaching them. This is extremely sad.

Why the hell these men get married when they can’t even support their wives? Why they just leave them alone to suffer? I know that lady would have been crying while hiding herself somewhere in the house while the rest of the world being busy in their lives. I know it’s easy to say that ladies should take a stand for themselves but they should. Until unless they won’t, they will be kept treated like this. Now if the lady wants to take a stand for herself, the first advise she will get is “you have to bare this not for you but for your children, you have to compromise” & guess who would be advising this, none other than her mother (Another woman). So how would she take a stand for herself when another woman is asking her not to? I wish this compromise thing ends coz every time when this is advised, it is always for a female. Why no one advises a man to compromise???

Friday, April 16, 2010

DAY 344

Something strange is happening to me. I don’t really know what but I can’t seem to find words anymore to express myself. It is getting hard & difficult for me to chat, sms or even write my blogs. I wonder why. I have no clue at all. Maybe something deep inside bothering me but what is it, I have no idea. Therefore people please don’t think that I am ignoring you. It is just that I don’t know what to write as I might be loosing the magic of playing with words.

A few days back I accidentally damaged my refrigerator but my family keeps laughing at me on this & even my neighbors were laughing at my foolishness. Well! Ok so I did make a blunder but come on guys, everyone makes mistakes. I am a human too. Well! No worries. Let them laugh. At least I can say proudly that I do make people laugh. Oh! By the way, I think I should ban myself for going inside the kitchen. Every time I enter it, I break something. Today I broke the spoon. Hard to believe I did that but wow! I did it. :) :) :) :)

That 1Rs. coin is still lying on my keyboard at the office desk & I don’t know if it is lucky for me or not but really strange that it has not be stolen so far. I know someone who is lucky for me & that is the one special person that has the magical power to change my mood. Yesterday in the morning one call from that person changed my mood & throughout the day I kept smiling & had a wonderful day. So I would like to thank that special person for every time being there for me & taking care of me with so much love & respect.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

DAY 342

One of my online friends is not feeling well & suffering from pollen allergy. Readers of my blog, you are kindly requested to pray for the health of my friend.

Today when I came in the office I found 1Rs coin on my table & no one seems to be claiming it. I asked everyone but no one seems to be interested in it. So early morning in the office before even sitting on my seat I started earning. This must be me being lucky or what? Yeah! Sure what a luck. I just made an expensive blunder & this 1Rs coin is not going to help me.

It is always good to listen to the kids sometimes coz even they are right. I was told by a child not to do something but I did & damn I screwed it up. Yes it was the refrigerator. Well! Some mistakes are actually expensive. They can cost you. So I learnt this today.

For a past few days, I feel that I am changing. The world seems to be a very boring place now. I need some adventure. I might be shifting to my teenage. I used to drive fast & a bit dangerous in my early years. I am doing it again. I really don’t know why. I feel like I want some excitement in life but deep inside my heart, I’m extremely sad like I am missing someone so very much. Yes! I don’t like this anymore. Damn! Why do we miss people even when they are around but far from us? Time back I wanted to change the world but now when I look at it again, I want to change my life but I can’t do anything because things are not in my hand. Why? I don’t have any single clue. Does it make any sense? I guess not. Well! You see the mind do stop working when you do expensive blunders in the morning.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

DAY 338

After 28 hours of long journey I was back in the capital all the way from Karachi last Thursday. I was feeling so sad during the journey back home as I had the best time of life & a fantastic trip came to an end. Guess every good or bad thing do come to an end at some stage of life. Exactly one week back I started the journey at 1am Thursday & I was back on the same point at 1am next Thursday. This proves the trains in Pakistan do travel on time :-)

Coming back home I discovered that my little cat felt sick the day I left & the night I came back she started playing & in the end even slept with me. Awww she missed me. I love her coz she loves me. I love everyone that missed me or still miss me coz I believe that I am not that type of person that can be missed or loved for long.

For a past few days I was really down & sad as I was missing someone too much & still am missing but that same person has this magic that can turn my mood. It was getting hard for me to overcome my sadness & somehow that person changed it all. An internal strength is always provided by that person to me. I would really like to thank that magical person for being with me in my happiness, grief & for taking care of me & providing me the strength to fight with time.

The Internet service at my home & in my area is still down & this is now getting annoyed. According to them it might take a week more & at the moment nothing could be done but wait. Me being addicted to Internet, now I’m at the net cafĂ© & writing down my blog.

Last two days in the office & some pending work made it kind of busy. I actually enjoy busy days at the office as in the end it makes me feel proud that I did work otherwise it feels boring. Planning to go on hiking with a friend tomorrow so let’s see if the plan does work as my buddy has the ability to cancel the plan anytime :-) but I still love him…

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

DAY 334

Today 9pm at night, I will start my journey back to home from Karachi. I started this journey on 1st of April & will be back in my home city inshaAllah some where at 1am Thursday. Same way I started the journey at 1am last Thursday. Wow how quickly history repeats itself. Taking the same train (TEZRAO) as no seats available in others. "TEZ" means fast but trust me it is NOT fast at all.

It has been a really wonderful experience. Lots & lots of love I gathered & memories that I will always keep in me. I met exciting people, ice skating, roaming around, dinners late late night, boating, walk on the beach & lots of more. I would love to do it all over & over again.

I will have a very small amount of pain in my heart when I will leave tonight but very large amount of happiness as I had a wonderful time here. People that I am leaving behind are not left but I am taking them along in my heart.

Almost ready for the upcoming 30 hours journey back to the Capital & before I leave, I LOVE U. Yes! I do love u & will always do that...

Monday, April 5, 2010

DAY 333

So yesterday I woke up at 12pm & had my breakfast. Had to meet Aamir Saleem (The great Pakistani singer) so I called him & the plan was decided for the evening at 5pm. Went with my friend to the airport to get the train's ticket. Confused?? What the hell I was doing at the airport if I have to travel via train? Well! I found that the nearest railway reservation office was at the airport.

Aamir Bhai messaged me & asked me where I am so I called him & then we met at Allah wali churangi, Tariq road, MacDonald's. We had a long drive back to my flat in Aamir Bhai's car while having chat. It was amazing to meet him. The man is so humble & so great that I do love him a lot. He dropped me at the flat & I took his autograph on a piece of paper for my friend in Rawalpindi who requested me. Meanwhile I asked both of my friends to come down in the parking area so they can meet the singer too. Thank you Aamir Bhai for spending those moments with me & treating me as your own with love.

Today in the morning I had plans for shopping so I went to Saddar. First stop Rainbow Center for CD(s) then Bori Bazar for some ladies shopping. A few requests from my family members so had to fulfill them as well. First time I shopped for ladies.

In the evening me & my two friends went to the beach "Sea View". The most romantic place I think. We had long walk in the water with our shoes in our hands & pants folded up to the knees. The air that kept blowing was awesome. Next we went to MacDonald's for the dinner & then back to the pavilion (Flat).

This trip has been really great & some really loving people made it the best. I would like to thank two of my friends here with whom I had a great time. Thank you for your love, respect & toooo much caring. Thank you Hassan & Hamza. I don't mention names on the blog but this time I have too coz they won my heart.

I would also like to thank Aamir Saleem for making this memorable. Also like to thank a friend (Farhan Zia) back home for taking care of my family & his support throughout the journey.

Last but not the least I would like to thank a very very special person who is my twin as well for making my trip like a dream come true. This song goes for you...

Mujhay Yaad Hai Tera Muskurana
Woh Khilkhila Kay Hanstay Jana
Chalti Rahi Jo Meray Sang Sang
Badlay Mosam Kay Rang Rang
Meray Sang Sang Chalti Jana... Meray Sang Sang...

Teri Ankhon Main Tha Aks Mera
Teri Batoon Main Tha Rang Mera
Kis Pari Say Mil Kar Aya Tha
Jo Badal Gaya Mera Dhang Dhang
Meray Sang Sang Chalti Jana... Meray Sang Sang...

Ik Kashti Thi Jo Kahin Pyar Ki
Sach Us Main Thay Hum Sath Hi
Tum Nay Chuwa Tu Aisa Laga
Khil Gaya Ho Mera Ang Ang
Meray Sang Sang Chalti Jana... Meray Sang Sang...

Main Bhula Nahi Koi Pal Bhi
Mujhay Chahiey Roz Mera Kal Hi
Tum Chor Kay Na Jana Mujh Ko
Chahay Karay Yeh Duniya Tang Tang
Meray Sang Sang Chalti Jana... Meray Sang Sang...

Sunday, April 4, 2010

DAY 332

What a wonderful & fantastic day I had yesterday. I will never forget the moments I had stolen from life yesterday. It was the best & the most ausum gift life could ever give me. If someone asks me to live a day again in life & which one to choose, I would say yesterday without pausing coz that day is & will be the most precious treasure for me till my last breath.

Yesterday I meet the person who I call my twin. Now this seems strange but it is true. What ever I want, I wish, I like, I feel, I need, all that person wants the same. It is like my soul twin. The thinking, the liking, our wishes every moment is the same that we want. It seems like a movie that walking on the path of life you suddenly come to know that some where in this world a person is just like you & then you get the chance to meet the person. We spent 2-3 hour together but had the best time coz we were like 2 in 1 deal. We did plan the moments & wow!! We actually lived those moments the way we planned. We met at Millennium Mall in Karachi in front of KFC. Had fried chips & Pepsi. Had some wonderful chat & then went to Aladdin Park. Again had lots & lots of chit chat, laughs, smiles & moments we shared. Went for boating was a fabulous experience & then some walks & talks. took a rickshaw & back to home. Can't forget any of it & don't even want to. Every moment was great & every min was a dream coz my twin was with me. The best part was that the way I wanted was the same that person wanted. I would like to thank that person for being there & for giving me the best moments of life. We will meet again & again & again InshaAllah...

Coming back to the flat I spoke to the great singer Aamir Saleem on the phone & inshaAllah will be meeting him today. When I came back my friends had already planned the remaining part of the evening & we left for Arena. A very nice place for enjoyment & entertainment indeed. We had two options. Bowling or ice-skating. I choose ice-skating. Lots of people watching you & the fear in the heart that you will fall & they will laugh. I did not give them the chance to laugh at me. With in the next min I was in the middle of the deck & after a few minutes I was skating in a normal speed. 20min of duration & I kept my balance & kept enjoying very moment. My friend did fall once but wow just once in 20mins & first time on the ice deck. I knew roller skates ad it's been a very long time but I mentally prepared myself & yes I did it. See it is all mind game.

After that we came back to the flat & went out again for very late dinner. We went for Chicken cheese roll but then a friend called & asked to come over to his place at Guru Mandir so we cancelled that roll & rolled over to his place & from there we went to Bakda for the brains. Yes a strange name of a shop. Kausar Bakda Shop at Kharadar famous for the brains in Karachi. Brain, I love it & yes had fun eating lots of it. Then we had paan, actually 2 of it :-) & then back to the pavilion (Flat) at almost 3am, on the bed & goodnight to the world but the whole day kept rolling in front of my closed eyes like a flashback in movies.

Thank you ALLAH for blessing me with yesterday's best moments of my life...

Saturday, April 3, 2010

DAY 331

After a 30 hour long journey via train, I am now in Karachi from the Capital & staying with an old friend of mine & his brother from Jeddah. It was a peaceful journey in lots of pieces. It all started last Wednesday & Thursday middle night. I had to be at the station before 1:00am & yes I was but damn, the train was late as usual. First it was hard to find the coach coz no numbers on the coaches but I did manage to find my seat + berth. The journey started at 1:35am & I actually slept which I was not planning. I woke up at 5 in the morning. Wow! I never do that. Me being abnormal. I kept messaging my friends regarding my location & updating them during the journey.

Found a funny person in the train as well. He kept joking around & teasing every salesman in a funny manner. I had 3 people along in the same cabin & all of them nice & caring. Looking after each other & luggage as well. One of them was an old guy. He kept speaking to me even when I was on sms with friends. He was speaking in a very low tone & almost 90%, I don't know what he said. I kept smiling & saying yes yes. A few things I did manage to hear that he was a civil engineer from UET qualified since 1983. He was too much interested in me. Did give me his visiting card & asked me to visit his house in Karachi.

I enjoyed the moments standing at the gate & looking outside while singing. I did not involve myself too much with my fellow passengers. I kept sending names of the stations & junctions through which the train crossed. Some really funny & strange names which I never heard before. Reading the names sometimes I felt like travelling in Japan instead of Pakistan.

Friday morning I was in Karachi but somewhere in the night, the old passenger was lost. don't know weather he missed the train atany station in the dark of nightor what. His lugagewas still onthe train so the other two passengers took it & decided to drop it at his place as we had his visiting card with number & complete address. My mobile battery was verylow & I had to contact my friend here in Karachi when I reached so at night I turned off my mobile & at Karachi staion found the they provide free mobile charging service. that was really nice. Got my mobile charged & stood at a point where I had to meet him. Few minutes later I discovered that I'm standing under a board saying Heritae Protected by government of Sindh. So I was being protected all the time. :) Ok just kidding, it was for the station building. My friend came & wetook the radio cab to his place. There I took a bath & wow I had 2-3 kilo dust on me. Got cleaned & changed. Then I meet his brother & wow he is mashaAllah tall now. Last time when I saw him he was near to my waist but now taller then me. He was unaware of my arrival as his brother kept it a surprise for him. We went for breakfast "HALWAPURI" with tea. Came back tothe apartment & then I checked my mails & FB & then I slept. Both of them went out as one of them had a exam&the other one had classes. His younger brother came at Friday prayer & we both went to pray & then had spicey chicken biryani for lunch.

In the evening we went out in a group of 7-8 boys & had some fun time. We were planning to attend a concert but due to security reasons it ended very early & we changed the directon towards defence & sea view. Looking at the moon & it's reflection in the water was a great view to watch. Went to boat basin & had dinner at 2:30am. A very long menu with brain, Chicken in butter, Chicken boneless handi, mandi (Arabic dish) & a few other things with cold drinks & some really funny conversations. Came back to home at late night & went tosleep at almost 4am.

Woke up with some realy nice sms & just came from a walk in the hot weahter. Had a burger with banana milkshake for my breakfast. Visited thenearest ATM & now in front of the system. Next plan to meet my twin today inshaAllah very soon & the next blog will cover all that part...