Sometimes I feel I should stop writing blogs as every few days down the road I see angry people staring at me & thinking that those bad lines were written for them but when it comes on the good lines no thank you no nothing. Not even a smile. But then why should I stop writing? If someone doesn’t like my writing, you are most welcome not to read. I write what I feel. My feelings are my own views. They could be different then yours but trust me that every bad line is not for you. Why thinking that the lines are only for you? I wish this could stop but let it be the way it is. I cannot stop writing. I do apologize from my end if someone felt hurt due to my words but trust me that every bad line is not for you. It is a general talk. Ok! Not that army general.
The weather has changed & now it’s officially romantic. Wow! I love this weather. It asks my heart to dance with joy & fly in the sky. I wish I could fly in actual but in my wild dreams I can do anything. Dreams are really wonderful to live in but we should be practical too at the same time. I live in dreams because this is the only way I can enjoy my life. If I start living in the real world, it only hurts. In my dreamland, I’m never alone. So I love my dreamland.
Today I woke up late at around 12 & when it was time for lunch, I was having my breakfast. Wow! That was fast. By the way I was not the only one today having breakfast at lunch time. I had a friend too who was doing the same. This is what you call true friend but he had some yummy & tasty things in breakfast while I had the normal one. True friend… Huh :)…
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
DAY 296
A few days of sickness with a bad throat, running nose, pain in the whole body & internal fever kept me away from my PC & therefore I was not been able to write my blog or to check my emails but yesterday I was back. So hopefully blog everyday from now on.
Why people try to impose their thoughts on you? Why they try to force you by creating a dramatically situation & then asking you to act upon their decisions? For sometime that might work but trust me not for long. You cannot impose your thoughts or decisions on others & you have no right to do that as well. Try the better way. Try to clear your point & make them understand with solid reasons. Otherwise don’t bother because when someone tries this with you then you yourself get irritated.
Life can’t be better then what I have at the moment. No I’m not a rich person or with all the luxuries of life but sometimes other things matter more than these materialistic things. For me love is life & for me money is just a piece of paper with which you are not able to purchase internal happiness or smile. Yes you can built four walls with a roof to live in but no you can’t make it a home without loving & caring people around you.
I had been bad with relations. In my life at some stage I kept loosing people. Some of them left coz of their own will & some of them coz of my mistakes. People enter in my heart with my permission but they leave at their own will. I don’t want them to leave my heart with pain & hate against me. Life is too short. When people leave you, you are left alone with only memories. I want to be with the best memories that I had with each & everyone not the bad ones.
Today is 12th Rabi-ul-Awal, the date on which our Prophet Muhammad (P.B.U.H) was born & died. I see people celebrating this day in a strange manner. I think the best thing to do is to follow his messages & at least recite the Holy Quran for him but no, the whole day they keep decorating the areas, buildings & their homes. Even the street where I live is nowadays looking awesome at night with lights all over. When I walk home at night, it seems like walking on a red carpet. Why do we keep forgetting that he never wanted this? I pray that Allah give us strength to follow the Prophet’s message. I need the most strength as I have been a really bad person in life. Hope Allah will forgive me…
Why people try to impose their thoughts on you? Why they try to force you by creating a dramatically situation & then asking you to act upon their decisions? For sometime that might work but trust me not for long. You cannot impose your thoughts or decisions on others & you have no right to do that as well. Try the better way. Try to clear your point & make them understand with solid reasons. Otherwise don’t bother because when someone tries this with you then you yourself get irritated.
Life can’t be better then what I have at the moment. No I’m not a rich person or with all the luxuries of life but sometimes other things matter more than these materialistic things. For me love is life & for me money is just a piece of paper with which you are not able to purchase internal happiness or smile. Yes you can built four walls with a roof to live in but no you can’t make it a home without loving & caring people around you.
I had been bad with relations. In my life at some stage I kept loosing people. Some of them left coz of their own will & some of them coz of my mistakes. People enter in my heart with my permission but they leave at their own will. I don’t want them to leave my heart with pain & hate against me. Life is too short. When people leave you, you are left alone with only memories. I want to be with the best memories that I had with each & everyone not the bad ones.
Today is 12th Rabi-ul-Awal, the date on which our Prophet Muhammad (P.B.U.H) was born & died. I see people celebrating this day in a strange manner. I think the best thing to do is to follow his messages & at least recite the Holy Quran for him but no, the whole day they keep decorating the areas, buildings & their homes. Even the street where I live is nowadays looking awesome at night with lights all over. When I walk home at night, it seems like walking on a red carpet. Why do we keep forgetting that he never wanted this? I pray that Allah give us strength to follow the Prophet’s message. I need the most strength as I have been a really bad person in life. Hope Allah will forgive me…
Monday, February 22, 2010
DAY 291
Everyday I want to write but things are changing so sudden in my life that wow. Every minute, everything changes. Like a Disney movie. Atmosphere changes, surrounding changes, sudden things happen, people meet, people go away, some people smile at me, some love me & some hate me. See how fast it happens.
Last few nights were too interesting. One of the nights was just a nightmare on an unknown street. Other nights were awesome. Can’t explain why & how but trust me on this one.
20th Feb was a day when three of my friends were born. One of them is a singer “Aamir Saleem” & then rest of the two normal but again really nice & important people in my life. So that day for the first time in 5 & half years two of my friends were invited on lunch at my place. This was the first time they visited my place. I was thinking that they might not like the place but according to them they actually liked it. Hope they did not lie :)
We had a really funny & nice time as I kept joking at the table when we had lunch, everyone enjoyed. Me & my friend kept joking & teasing others & each other as well. That made it fun & entertaining. This was their second meeting with my family & first meeting with my cats too. So they loved my cats too. It was a nice day.
A few people have complains against me that I have changed. Well! I am. Why, I can’t explain but yes I am. The so sudden events that’s been taking place in life has changed me. I never knew what I had in me hidden & some how that hidden part is coming out for someone. For others I have not been the same. It’s not my fault. I was asked to walk on these paths. Infect I was pushed by others to walk on. So pushed away by someone & pulled near by others that made me change my paths of life. Let’s see how far I walk but now I would not stop walking coz I need to do this not for others but for my own heart.
Back to the office today after a good weekend. My spy boss is still tensed as he has not been able to catch us red handed that what the hell we do on our systems through out the day. I will make him bore :)
Last few nights were too interesting. One of the nights was just a nightmare on an unknown street. Other nights were awesome. Can’t explain why & how but trust me on this one.
20th Feb was a day when three of my friends were born. One of them is a singer “Aamir Saleem” & then rest of the two normal but again really nice & important people in my life. So that day for the first time in 5 & half years two of my friends were invited on lunch at my place. This was the first time they visited my place. I was thinking that they might not like the place but according to them they actually liked it. Hope they did not lie :)
We had a really funny & nice time as I kept joking at the table when we had lunch, everyone enjoyed. Me & my friend kept joking & teasing others & each other as well. That made it fun & entertaining. This was their second meeting with my family & first meeting with my cats too. So they loved my cats too. It was a nice day.
A few people have complains against me that I have changed. Well! I am. Why, I can’t explain but yes I am. The so sudden events that’s been taking place in life has changed me. I never knew what I had in me hidden & some how that hidden part is coming out for someone. For others I have not been the same. It’s not my fault. I was asked to walk on these paths. Infect I was pushed by others to walk on. So pushed away by someone & pulled near by others that made me change my paths of life. Let’s see how far I walk but now I would not stop walking coz I need to do this not for others but for my own heart.
Back to the office today after a good weekend. My spy boss is still tensed as he has not been able to catch us red handed that what the hell we do on our systems through out the day. I will make him bore :)
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
DAY 286
I’m back on the blog after a few days off. What a days I have. Really I would say nice & interesting ones. Mostly it doesn’t happen with me. My life used to be boring one but suddenly its now interesting.
My UK boss has been spying on us for the past few days but he is getting so bore as he has not been able to catch us red-handed. You see I keep my hands clean :). I used to think he was a wise guy but now I don’t’ agree with my own thinking. He is NOT wise. 14th Feb was the birthday of one of the most selfish & irritating person in the office & surprisingly no one from the office wished her. Now this UK boss loves her so he actually requested us & said please wish her for me. Oh GOD! See what can love do especially when it’s totally blind. A boss is begging us. It was so cheap of him. A director of a company is requesting us “the employees” to wish her & explaining us that this is team spirit. Where the hell was the team spirit last year when it was my birthday?? Damn!! So cheap of him.
A new friend has been introduced in my life. A really nice & interesting person. Officially 6th friend of my life. The first friend in my life who shares my star & almost all the same thoughts & likeness. This is really a wonderful experience.
Yesterday I had breakfast with two of my old friends. After almost 8-9 days we all three were there at the breakfast. It was actually not that fast. 12pm we were having breakfast. So it was not fast :) It was a good experience after a long time & we had some great laughs & some really interesting chats throughout the day.
The weather keeps touching my heart after every day or two. A day back it rained & I actually wanted to stand out there & get wet but I was in the office. I wanted to feel every drop of water on my body. The weather was absolutely romantic & I was like flying in air without wings.
Nowadays I’m on ways to create records. Been doing SMS daily on an average of 250+. In last three days I did almost 750 SMS. WOW! That is a record. Anyone out there to beat me?? Well! Why been doing that? I have 3 lovely friends out there & I have been enjoying their company. We have been having interesting, funny & teasing chats through the SMS. I am really changed. I used to be a quiet & reserved person but now, oh GOD! I talk too much. Thank you all 3 of my friends for bearing my talks :)…
My UK boss has been spying on us for the past few days but he is getting so bore as he has not been able to catch us red-handed. You see I keep my hands clean :). I used to think he was a wise guy but now I don’t’ agree with my own thinking. He is NOT wise. 14th Feb was the birthday of one of the most selfish & irritating person in the office & surprisingly no one from the office wished her. Now this UK boss loves her so he actually requested us & said please wish her for me. Oh GOD! See what can love do especially when it’s totally blind. A boss is begging us. It was so cheap of him. A director of a company is requesting us “the employees” to wish her & explaining us that this is team spirit. Where the hell was the team spirit last year when it was my birthday?? Damn!! So cheap of him.
A new friend has been introduced in my life. A really nice & interesting person. Officially 6th friend of my life. The first friend in my life who shares my star & almost all the same thoughts & likeness. This is really a wonderful experience.
Yesterday I had breakfast with two of my old friends. After almost 8-9 days we all three were there at the breakfast. It was actually not that fast. 12pm we were having breakfast. So it was not fast :) It was a good experience after a long time & we had some great laughs & some really interesting chats throughout the day.
The weather keeps touching my heart after every day or two. A day back it rained & I actually wanted to stand out there & get wet but I was in the office. I wanted to feel every drop of water on my body. The weather was absolutely romantic & I was like flying in air without wings.
Nowadays I’m on ways to create records. Been doing SMS daily on an average of 250+. In last three days I did almost 750 SMS. WOW! That is a record. Anyone out there to beat me?? Well! Why been doing that? I have 3 lovely friends out there & I have been enjoying their company. We have been having interesting, funny & teasing chats through the SMS. I am really changed. I used to be a quiet & reserved person but now, oh GOD! I talk too much. Thank you all 3 of my friends for bearing my talks :)…
Saturday, February 13, 2010
DAY 282
The whole Friday our UK boss kept an eye on us. Yes! He was spying on us. He wanted to see what we do on our systems all the day. He was using a software called “Teamviewer” to spy on us. All the team did not do anything. We did not even browse any websites. So all day he got bored as no entertainment from our end. Now he must know how boring is our work :) I wish him NO luck in future with his spy abilities. He is not good in this.
Do people feel jealous from you? Well! Second time in my life something has happened. A friend of mine is asked to quit relation with me by another friend of hers as he is jealous of me now. So he says either him or me. Well! Not new for me. It has already happened to me before as well. Now I really want to know why. Why people are jealous of me? I am just one ordinary person with ordinary life & not even a rich or famous person. Then why are people jealous of me? Why do they start comparing themselves with me? I don’t have anything people. Stop comparing yourself with me. If you want to compare, than compare yourselves with them that are at certain level of life at which people can be jealous of them. Why are we jealous of others? Why can’t we try to achieve those things that we see in others? Instead of burning our energy on negative things, how about use it in achieving those things that we see in others & feel jealous. People are even jealous of me & they don’t even know who I am & what I am. At least try to know me who I am & then try being jealous. I’m sure then you won’t be.
A friend of mine is in tension now. She has been asked by a friend to either quit relation on me or on him. I just told her a simple solution. Follow your heart. Ask yourself a few questions. Is he important or I am? Was he always there when you needed him or was I? Coz good friends & helpful friends are really hard to find & if he is one of them then yes please do quit on me. Hope she will find a solution to her dilemma soon & I wish her best in life…
Do people feel jealous from you? Well! Second time in my life something has happened. A friend of mine is asked to quit relation with me by another friend of hers as he is jealous of me now. So he says either him or me. Well! Not new for me. It has already happened to me before as well. Now I really want to know why. Why people are jealous of me? I am just one ordinary person with ordinary life & not even a rich or famous person. Then why are people jealous of me? Why do they start comparing themselves with me? I don’t have anything people. Stop comparing yourself with me. If you want to compare, than compare yourselves with them that are at certain level of life at which people can be jealous of them. Why are we jealous of others? Why can’t we try to achieve those things that we see in others? Instead of burning our energy on negative things, how about use it in achieving those things that we see in others & feel jealous. People are even jealous of me & they don’t even know who I am & what I am. At least try to know me who I am & then try being jealous. I’m sure then you won’t be.
A friend of mine is in tension now. She has been asked by a friend to either quit relation on me or on him. I just told her a simple solution. Follow your heart. Ask yourself a few questions. Is he important or I am? Was he always there when you needed him or was I? Coz good friends & helpful friends are really hard to find & if he is one of them then yes please do quit on me. Hope she will find a solution to her dilemma soon & I wish her best in life…
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
DAY 279
I feel like a free bird flying in the sky. I feel like I have been released from a cage & I see the selfish world all below me. No I am not dead. I’m still alive & I’m still going to torture everyone with my words & my blogs. Yes! I do feel like a free bird. I wonder why. I can’t seem to understand the reason but it’s always a pleasure to be free & happy. I don’t even know weather I am happy or sad. Maybe I am free from all feelings as well. Oh! It doesn’t even hurt when people slam doors at me. No it doesn’t even hurt when people blame me of something I have not done. So where are my feelings? Do I feel the fire of anger in me? Do I feel the pain in me? No I don’t. Damn! I must have died. Is my soul been taken away by an angel coz that must be the only reason I’m flying. Nah! I’m in front of the computer, breathing & still feels like been set free. Ok enough of too much confusion. I am all ok & I feel like I am born again. I feel a new life in me. Maybe it’s the weather that has changed me or maybe it’s all my mind game. Who cares, I’m all ok & feeling great. Thanks GOD the confusing paragraph ended.
The weather is so great & I really don’t want it to go away but as everything comes to an end so will this too. I’m just waiting for the upcoming weekend coz I want to enjoy this weather. I might go out on long walks or long drives. I might be alone to enjoy this but for the past few days I have been enjoying moments all alone. There was a time when I was not sharing any part of my heart or feelings with any one & now I do. Sometimes with friends & mostly on the blog.
Yesterday I received a very beautiful email from a really nice person. I liked the words of it. It was something like this:
I have 3 parts of my heart.
1st for ALLAH (GOD)
2nd for Family
3rd for Friends
but nothing for U…
coz you are my HEART…
What a wonderful way to express feelings. I really liked it. Thank you my dear friend for sending me those lines. It really made a smile appear on my face & somehow it really turned my normal day into a happy one. I wish you happiness in life my dear friend…
The weather is so great & I really don’t want it to go away but as everything comes to an end so will this too. I’m just waiting for the upcoming weekend coz I want to enjoy this weather. I might go out on long walks or long drives. I might be alone to enjoy this but for the past few days I have been enjoying moments all alone. There was a time when I was not sharing any part of my heart or feelings with any one & now I do. Sometimes with friends & mostly on the blog.
Yesterday I received a very beautiful email from a really nice person. I liked the words of it. It was something like this:
I have 3 parts of my heart.
1st for ALLAH (GOD)
2nd for Family
3rd for Friends
but nothing for U…
coz you are my HEART…
What a wonderful way to express feelings. I really liked it. Thank you my dear friend for sending me those lines. It really made a smile appear on my face & somehow it really turned my normal day into a happy one. I wish you happiness in life my dear friend…
Monday, February 8, 2010
DAY 277
The sound of rain & thunder right now is making me happy & sad at the same time. Happy coz I love rain & sad coz I can’t go out there as I’m in the office. Today when I was travelling to the office the sky was quiet but when I picked up a friend of mine during the journey, the sky began to cry. I wish I had good friends . Ok that was just a joke. He said to me that rain is blessing of GOD while we were getting wet on the bike & I joked back at him saying maybe this is coz u never did anything nice in this world so the sky began to cry. Me & my friend, we keep joking at each other & we both are cool with it. There is a deal between us that if we don’t like any part of it, we will say it that minute. Otherwise we both are cool.
Both of my friends were asking me why I was quiet yesterday during the lunch. I really have no idea. Maybe I wanted all of them to speak or maybe I was blamed that I only taunt so that’s why I thought someone might get hurt again. I really don’t want to hurt people’s feeling. I only joke to make other’s laugh or smile & hurting them is honestly not my intentions. I even apologized to both of my friends via SMS after the lunch.
Valentine day is not far & I have a plan for that day. I might visit a few outing spots all alone as I nowadays enjoy my own company or you can say my loneliness. 20th Feb is not even far. Three people I know were born on that date & one of them is my family member & the other is a friend. The third one is also a friend & a famous Pakistani pop singer Aamir Saleem. I & my friend are in a process of planning the day as it’s his birthday as well. So maybe another gathering of my two friends & my family is coming soon. Let’s see. I might invite both of them at my rented residence & they might have a chance to meet my cute pets (2 of my cats) as well. Not confirmed yet but will try to plan the day in such a manner that my family member & my friend can say that it was the best birthday they ever had. Let’s hope I can produce smiles on everyone’s face that day…
Both of my friends were asking me why I was quiet yesterday during the lunch. I really have no idea. Maybe I wanted all of them to speak or maybe I was blamed that I only taunt so that’s why I thought someone might get hurt again. I really don’t want to hurt people’s feeling. I only joke to make other’s laugh or smile & hurting them is honestly not my intentions. I even apologized to both of my friends via SMS after the lunch.
Valentine day is not far & I have a plan for that day. I might visit a few outing spots all alone as I nowadays enjoy my own company or you can say my loneliness. 20th Feb is not even far. Three people I know were born on that date & one of them is my family member & the other is a friend. The third one is also a friend & a famous Pakistani pop singer Aamir Saleem. I & my friend are in a process of planning the day as it’s his birthday as well. So maybe another gathering of my two friends & my family is coming soon. Let’s see. I might invite both of them at my rented residence & they might have a chance to meet my cute pets (2 of my cats) as well. Not confirmed yet but will try to plan the day in such a manner that my family member & my friend can say that it was the best birthday they ever had. Let’s hope I can produce smiles on everyone’s face that day…
Sunday, February 7, 2010
DAY 276
After almost 5 & half years, for the first time 2 members of my family met 2 friends of mine. I don’t have any clue what was going in all those 4 minds during the lunch and I won’t even ask coz I think suspense should always be there left in life. Hope all the 4 enjoyed the lunch or should I say almost dinner & hope they all had a good time. I tried to keep quiet as much as possible. One of my friends was perhaps angry with me & she has all the reasons to be in this world. That might be the reason she kept quiet most of the time or maybe she was tired as she came from all the way to Lahore. I can only hope they all did enjoy.
In such type of gathering, I feel scared coz my family knows me so does my friends & I had a feeling they might mention me & discuss my weakness. So a few discussions did take place but all was fine. I really don’t know what is now into me that I feel not talking too much in gatherings. I prefer to keep quiet. I was even walking at the distance from all of them & I really don’t know why. Maybe the pain in me is too much & not letting me speak-up.
The weather outside is awesome. Sky covered with clouds & little drops of water falling that are harmless. I actually shaved today after 3 & half weeks just for this gathering. At the moment I want to take a long walk in this weather but I’m feeling a bit tired & sleepy. Otherwise I would like to walk. Maybe some other day. I’m not even waking up early in the morning nowadays as I used to do but still don’t know why feeling so tired & sleepy. Previously I was up at 7:30 in the morning & nowadays I’m getting up at 11:30 or 12:00pm. One of my family member said in the meeting that someone is really required in my life to change me but I think that someone is no where to be found anymore. Guess! I will not change…
In such type of gathering, I feel scared coz my family knows me so does my friends & I had a feeling they might mention me & discuss my weakness. So a few discussions did take place but all was fine. I really don’t know what is now into me that I feel not talking too much in gatherings. I prefer to keep quiet. I was even walking at the distance from all of them & I really don’t know why. Maybe the pain in me is too much & not letting me speak-up.
The weather outside is awesome. Sky covered with clouds & little drops of water falling that are harmless. I actually shaved today after 3 & half weeks just for this gathering. At the moment I want to take a long walk in this weather but I’m feeling a bit tired & sleepy. Otherwise I would like to walk. Maybe some other day. I’m not even waking up early in the morning nowadays as I used to do but still don’t know why feeling so tired & sleepy. Previously I was up at 7:30 in the morning & nowadays I’m getting up at 11:30 or 12:00pm. One of my family member said in the meeting that someone is really required in my life to change me but I think that someone is no where to be found anymore. Guess! I will not change…
Friday, February 5, 2010
DAY 274
What a beautiful atmosphere out there. I wish I could go on a long drive & keep enjoying every bit of that weather. The sky is full of clouds & in some parts of the city, it rained. This weather is somehow directly connected to my heart. The minute I step out in that atmosphere, I feel happiness & joy in me & I start enjoying all the moments. I actually enjoyed the ride on my bike all the way from my home to the office. I wish I could continue it but unfortunately I was not able to do so as I had to report in the office.
Its Kashmir day & on my way I kept reading slogans like “Kashmir is not for sale” & “Pakistan will never abandon Kashmir” & so on. I have seen so many Pakistani that don’t even like Pakistan & they are always cursing the nation. So how come you expect them to love Kashmir. We being the public can’t even do anything for ourselves. What are we going to do for Kashmir? These slogans are now just for politicians. It is just a way to attract votes & nothing more. The leaders we have chosen are even ready to sell themselves for cash. They actually do it when it comes to shift from one party to another. So how come they can’t sell Kashmir? They can even sell Pakistan. I think they are in that process.
Last night I & my friend made a hatric. No we were not playing cricket. We had “Gajar ka Halwa” for the third time in consecutive day or should I say night. Will stop today coz don’t want myself to be addicted to it. My friend who has been my partner in crime for having this halwa has been trying to convince me not to leave one of the other friend. The poor guy has tried his best but I’m one hard person to be convinced. Well! It’s not anyone’s fault that I’m doing this. It’s just a requirement I have to fulfill. He has been pushing me in memories for the past three nights & I have been pulling myself out of it before I go to sleep. I know I have so many great moments that can make me stay in this relation but I just can’t seem to find one actual reason to be in this relation. What I see is hurting myself in the end. So that is the only reason I have been keeping myself away from the relation. Damn I am selfish. Well! I think it is more like being practical & this is what my friend wanted me to be. Hope both of my friends can understand this.
Its Kashmir day & on my way I kept reading slogans like “Kashmir is not for sale” & “Pakistan will never abandon Kashmir” & so on. I have seen so many Pakistani that don’t even like Pakistan & they are always cursing the nation. So how come you expect them to love Kashmir. We being the public can’t even do anything for ourselves. What are we going to do for Kashmir? These slogans are now just for politicians. It is just a way to attract votes & nothing more. The leaders we have chosen are even ready to sell themselves for cash. They actually do it when it comes to shift from one party to another. So how come they can’t sell Kashmir? They can even sell Pakistan. I think they are in that process.
Last night I & my friend made a hatric. No we were not playing cricket. We had “Gajar ka Halwa” for the third time in consecutive day or should I say night. Will stop today coz don’t want myself to be addicted to it. My friend who has been my partner in crime for having this halwa has been trying to convince me not to leave one of the other friend. The poor guy has tried his best but I’m one hard person to be convinced. Well! It’s not anyone’s fault that I’m doing this. It’s just a requirement I have to fulfill. He has been pushing me in memories for the past three nights & I have been pulling myself out of it before I go to sleep. I know I have so many great moments that can make me stay in this relation but I just can’t seem to find one actual reason to be in this relation. What I see is hurting myself in the end. So that is the only reason I have been keeping myself away from the relation. Damn I am selfish. Well! I think it is more like being practical & this is what my friend wanted me to be. Hope both of my friends can understand this.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
DAY 273
For the past two nights I & my friend are having 2-3 plates of Gajar Ka Halwa (Sweet made from carrot) daily. It has been a really sweet moment with sweet in mouth & sharing some really nice memories. Yesterday we were talking about our first trip to Lahore together & some moments of it. Then we shared the second trip as well & it was good to know that we both remember every event of that trip. On the second trip we discovered an ordinary line spoken in a very sweet way. It was addressed to me in such a sweet style that I asked the person to record it & send it to me but unfortunately that never happened. The line was “Chalna Nahi Hai Kia Pagal?” (Don’t you want to go stupid?), Memories, memories…
Today in the morning when I read the news about the famous highly educated lady & the way the US court has done justice was marvelous. Without any proof you say she’s guilty but when it comes to American’s they are always NOT GUILTY. So they just want to hang every Muslim. Good going America. You have now created another reason for yourself to be attacked by extremists. These stupid actions are the moments when people start hating. I just want to ask one question. If there was no evidence then how is she “GUILTY”?? If evidence is not the main requirement then why others get released?? When it comes to American, they come to the other country & rescue their people but when it comes to Pakistanis, the government just sit there & convey messages through media that we are doing our best. Now this proves how best they are doing… Bloody politicians. Yes! I said it… Sue me…
My UK boss who did try to collect evidence against me & my manager failed & as he was not able to get anything, he said GOD IS WATCHING. Wow! When did he start believing in GOD? How come GOD is only watching us & when it comes to him, GOD is not watching then?? So being a UK citizen he can blame us too without evidence.
The stupid creature who was threatening the UK boss on Facebook by her status that she is resigning came back to the office yesterday which proved my line for her that barking dogs seldom bite & proved that UK boss must have begged her to stay. When you can’t even do a thing, why the hell you announce?? Bloody hypocrites…
Today in the morning when I read the news about the famous highly educated lady & the way the US court has done justice was marvelous. Without any proof you say she’s guilty but when it comes to American’s they are always NOT GUILTY. So they just want to hang every Muslim. Good going America. You have now created another reason for yourself to be attacked by extremists. These stupid actions are the moments when people start hating. I just want to ask one question. If there was no evidence then how is she “GUILTY”?? If evidence is not the main requirement then why others get released?? When it comes to American, they come to the other country & rescue their people but when it comes to Pakistanis, the government just sit there & convey messages through media that we are doing our best. Now this proves how best they are doing… Bloody politicians. Yes! I said it… Sue me…
My UK boss who did try to collect evidence against me & my manager failed & as he was not able to get anything, he said GOD IS WATCHING. Wow! When did he start believing in GOD? How come GOD is only watching us & when it comes to him, GOD is not watching then?? So being a UK citizen he can blame us too without evidence.
The stupid creature who was threatening the UK boss on Facebook by her status that she is resigning came back to the office yesterday which proved my line for her that barking dogs seldom bite & proved that UK boss must have begged her to stay. When you can’t even do a thing, why the hell you announce?? Bloody hypocrites…
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
DAY 272
My UK boss is acting strange. He is trying to spy on us as what we do on the office computer. “Us” means me & my manager. Well! Let him do that coz we are innocent creatures. We don’t do anything but work. The one who works is never praised by our boss. The one who spies on others for him is more important. If you can’t trust your employees then why you even keep them in the office? Well! Let him do his part & we do our part. The person who is trying to be extra smart in the office will soon have her part. She thinks she is the sexiest & the best human in this universe. Let me tell you, this is a false statement for her but let her be happy in her stupid dreams. She’s been posting status on Facebook & indirectly threatening the UK boss that she is about to resign. What can I say? Barking dogs seldom bite. Why posting status? Just do it, if you have guts. Why wasting time? Actually she wants the boss to beg her to stay & I’m sure the boss is going to do that as well. Love is blind but this much blind, never knew that.
Love… What is love? I can’t define it but I think it is a path of life on which if you walk, you find yourself standing alone in the end with lots of blames. So I think one should not walk on these paths. Instead walk on those paths that are much easier like hate. It never gives you anything but yes it brings peace of mind after revenge. So I think that stupid creature in the office is walking on this path. One of the colleagues was saying that she must have been an ignored child in her childhood. So?? Was it our fault? Why do we have to take all this?? By acting like this now she thinks she will be popular? The other office ladies are ignoring her totally & this stupid creature thinks its all coz of us. Now if someone is ignoring you, why the reason would be us “The innocent creatures”? I think the ladies after a long time are doing the right thing.
Personally I think if you don’t find anything for yourself in a relation then you should quit it. Yes I know it’s a selfish thing to do but this is the way you can be practical. Otherwise you are not a practical person. To be a practical person you have to turn into a selfish creature. This is what I learnt in past few days. So I have decided too. Not to keep any relation that has nothing for me. It’s totally useless.
Love… What is love? I can’t define it but I think it is a path of life on which if you walk, you find yourself standing alone in the end with lots of blames. So I think one should not walk on these paths. Instead walk on those paths that are much easier like hate. It never gives you anything but yes it brings peace of mind after revenge. So I think that stupid creature in the office is walking on this path. One of the colleagues was saying that she must have been an ignored child in her childhood. So?? Was it our fault? Why do we have to take all this?? By acting like this now she thinks she will be popular? The other office ladies are ignoring her totally & this stupid creature thinks its all coz of us. Now if someone is ignoring you, why the reason would be us “The innocent creatures”? I think the ladies after a long time are doing the right thing.
Personally I think if you don’t find anything for yourself in a relation then you should quit it. Yes I know it’s a selfish thing to do but this is the way you can be practical. Otherwise you are not a practical person. To be a practical person you have to turn into a selfish creature. This is what I learnt in past few days. So I have decided too. Not to keep any relation that has nothing for me. It’s totally useless.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
DAY 271
The war is on. What war? The comment’s war. My friend invited my family on lunch but he never confirmed the plan last Saturday so one of my family members posted a comment on his wall on Facebook. My friend asked me & my family to start a war on comments & which ever party wins in the end, their choice of food & their choice of location but yes my friend will be paying in both the cases. So the war is on & it will remain till Friday. Last night result was “He is loosing” but lets see. He told me he might be asking a few friends to join the war & I said go ahead. Let’s see how far it goes but it’s really interesting as no one gets hurt in this war. Damn! I’m missing it. Missing what? My “Hurting people” quality.
A cup full of tea is lying on my table in the office & I’m not interested in it. The minute I had my first sip, it tasted like drinking burned coal. So I let it rest there in peace. I still remember there was a time when I was in college, I used to wake up early in the morning & I used to prepare my own breakfast. Egg, bread & tea. Yes! I used to make it well & I used to enjoy it too. I don’t do it anymore but I think I should start preparing tea in the office for the office boy at least so he can taste it & then he might make some good tea in future. Oh GOD! Taunt again. Well! I apologize but the thing is that it’s now a habit of mine. When I write, I try to keep that taunt & funny behavior in my words. Ok! I don’t do it every day but at least I do try.
Yesterday I read a report saying that people with more weight have long lives. It was strange but interesting. So all fat & overweight humans, please stay the way you are. You will live long. More round tummy, more life. I guess now I should forward the link to my elder sister as she is trying to get back in shape & it all started coz of my comments that somehow convinced her. Otherwise later she will blame that I reduced her days of life. “Blame”, a really nice word in stupid English directory. It keeps popping up in my life every day. Sometimes people say I blame & sometimes things are blamed on me. Well! One way or the other, only I’m getting the blame of blaming. Oh GOD! Taunt again… Ok I keep myself quiet for the day…
A cup full of tea is lying on my table in the office & I’m not interested in it. The minute I had my first sip, it tasted like drinking burned coal. So I let it rest there in peace. I still remember there was a time when I was in college, I used to wake up early in the morning & I used to prepare my own breakfast. Egg, bread & tea. Yes! I used to make it well & I used to enjoy it too. I don’t do it anymore but I think I should start preparing tea in the office for the office boy at least so he can taste it & then he might make some good tea in future. Oh GOD! Taunt again. Well! I apologize but the thing is that it’s now a habit of mine. When I write, I try to keep that taunt & funny behavior in my words. Ok! I don’t do it every day but at least I do try.
Yesterday I read a report saying that people with more weight have long lives. It was strange but interesting. So all fat & overweight humans, please stay the way you are. You will live long. More round tummy, more life. I guess now I should forward the link to my elder sister as she is trying to get back in shape & it all started coz of my comments that somehow convinced her. Otherwise later she will blame that I reduced her days of life. “Blame”, a really nice word in stupid English directory. It keeps popping up in my life every day. Sometimes people say I blame & sometimes things are blamed on me. Well! One way or the other, only I’m getting the blame of blaming. Oh GOD! Taunt again… Ok I keep myself quiet for the day…
Monday, February 1, 2010
DAY 270
Two very lazy days I spent. Almost 90% of these days I was just lying on the bed & doing nothing. Yes! I’m really turning into a lazy person. Well! I am a lazy person since long so nothing new about it. Saturday I was in a bad health & same was on Sunday but Saturday the pain in the body was more. I don’t remember if I slept in these two days but yes I do remember the first time I got out of the bed on Saturday & it was at 7:30 in the evening. Yes I have a good stamina of lying & hurting people. I just don’t stop. Every day I hurt people. I think now I’m turning into one hell of a devil.
Sunday evening at around 6:30 I took a long walk of almost 2 hours. I felt so tired. I was not feeling well but I kept walking & walking but no talking. Two of my friends did ask me to join them for dinner but I apologized. I was just feeling that I might hurt any of them so I skipped the idea but damn me. I did hurt one of them this morning. I really don’t know how it all started & how it all came to an end but unfortunately it all happened & again the devil is me.
Last night I was lying on the bed & I kept staring the ceiling & then the fan. I wonder why I was not able to sleep. There were no thoughts in my mind. It was just all blank & I kept staring things & kept asking myself why can’t I sleep but guess what, no answer. Even in the morning I kept lying on the bed so I can have at least an hour nap but no. So I quit. I took myself up on the roof & started walking in the sunlight. Every morning I do that & every day even my cats follow me & do the same. As long as I keep lying on the bed any of my cats stays there with me. Either sleeping or just sitting beside. The little cat keeps coming inside the blanket & going outside the blanket. She keeps doing this all night. I really love her. I want to make the video of her while she opens the door. She actually does. Soon I will get the video & would load it here. She actually stands on her two feet & pulls the door with her forefeet to get it open. Well! This one you will have to see. So soon I will get the video. Problem is that every time I walk towards her to make the video from my mobile she doesn’t even do it. She looks at me & say meow as if she wants me to open the door but she don’t try if anyone is near to her. Let’s see if I succeed in getting the video…
Sunday evening at around 6:30 I took a long walk of almost 2 hours. I felt so tired. I was not feeling well but I kept walking & walking but no talking. Two of my friends did ask me to join them for dinner but I apologized. I was just feeling that I might hurt any of them so I skipped the idea but damn me. I did hurt one of them this morning. I really don’t know how it all started & how it all came to an end but unfortunately it all happened & again the devil is me.
Last night I was lying on the bed & I kept staring the ceiling & then the fan. I wonder why I was not able to sleep. There were no thoughts in my mind. It was just all blank & I kept staring things & kept asking myself why can’t I sleep but guess what, no answer. Even in the morning I kept lying on the bed so I can have at least an hour nap but no. So I quit. I took myself up on the roof & started walking in the sunlight. Every morning I do that & every day even my cats follow me & do the same. As long as I keep lying on the bed any of my cats stays there with me. Either sleeping or just sitting beside. The little cat keeps coming inside the blanket & going outside the blanket. She keeps doing this all night. I really love her. I want to make the video of her while she opens the door. She actually does. Soon I will get the video & would load it here. She actually stands on her two feet & pulls the door with her forefeet to get it open. Well! This one you will have to see. So soon I will get the video. Problem is that every time I walk towards her to make the video from my mobile she doesn’t even do it. She looks at me & say meow as if she wants me to open the door but she don’t try if anyone is near to her. Let’s see if I succeed in getting the video…
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