DAY 648

Today was a day last year in my life when someone really special entered my life & within 4 months left me alone with the same speed as with the speed that person came in my life. So yes I miss that person a lot today & yes I wish I could have that time back but wishes, wishes & nothing more I am left with.

I DO NOT celebrate this day... You know why? Coz my own love is not lesser than anyone so why should I celebrate my love with someone else’s name? Anyhow a single day is never enough to express myself. I would need a complete life to do it. So yes, this day is not meant for me. I should create a day with either my name or her but can’t use her name so let it be MIB’s day someday in life.

The month has been strange. I just could not get out of my health problems. Everyday a new pain pops-up in my body. Neck pain, shoulder pain, headaches & more to come. Guess I am getting old. A friend of mine did tell me to get every part cut off that hurts. Well! If I start following that advice, soon I will be left with nothing in me. Ah! Great friends I have :)

My mom is now in Pakistan & she has landed in the next corner of the country so next week I am planning for a week long visit to Sindh (Tando Adam). Still have not decided the exact date but hopefully Sunday or Monday I might start my journey. I will be meeting her after almost 7 years. The last time I saw her was in Saudi Arabia when I left that country & the last moment I had with her was a hug while I kissed her forehead. Soon I will hug her again & will kiss her too. I am excited & sad at the same time. It will be very hard this time to say good bye again. So I really don’t know how I will leave her & how I will start my journey back to my current city. I will be meeting my relatives as well & I’m sure I will be facing too many questions in shape of complaints that will be hard for me to answer. So yes a bit scared too from the questions but I want to test myself if I will be able to answer them or not.

24 hours long journey with me & my loneliness would be boring again. The only problem is that I do not get along with the passengers too much as I love to stay in silence & I do not talk to them. Most of the time I only smile in an answer or a very short answer they get from me. I don’t like sharing my thoughts, my feelings or my info with others that I don’t know as I do not intend to make them friends for life. Come to think of it, in my whole life till now I only made 6-7 friends so this proves how social I am. Sometimes I really wonder how the hell on the internet I act as totally a different person. Well! Guess I would never know coz so far no body answered that and how could they? I never asked them…