DAY 676

Here I am back on this media to share my feelings. Some of you might think I’m stupid that I keep writing all this which means nothing to you guys out there but for me, its treasure coz here what ever I write is all true and nothing but true and this true thing is my own bloody feeling.

Before I continue from where I left in my last blog, I would like to thank a few who actually read my last blog & the comments I received from them were outstanding. Oh no no, they were not standing outside and commenting :) but what ever they passed on to me in shape of words were really nice & beautiful. One of my friends read my blog for the first time although I have been writing since long but according to her, what I wrote in my last blog & the way I presented it was amazing. So thank you my dear friend.

I did forget to mention in my last blog that on the way to Tando Adam jailed inside a long train, I did manage to break my own record of 375 SMS in a day. My new score is now 517 SMS in a day. I know, I know I’m crazy but this is what I am. Well! How did I do it, hmmmm… well! A magician never tells :)

On the way back, I was unable to find a seat in the train due to which I had to skip one of the trains right from the station. So in actual I left my relative’s home twice for the station & twice I had to see sad faces with tear in their eyes. So first I left the house on Saturday night March 5th 2011. Before I was about to leave the house, one of my cousin every young in age was lying on the ground grabbing one of my leg as hard as he can & shouting that I can’t go. The other cousin was saying that he will hide my bag. The third one said I will lock the door. While a few of them praying deep inside their heart & waiting for a miracle to happen to stop me. The most difficult moment was when I had to hug my mom & say goodbye. Meeting her after 7 years for just 12 days was really unfair but what can I say. Life is life. When I hugged her she kissed on my face everywhere & I could not forget that moment ever. It is like the moment is captured in my brain just like a movie scene. So after all this, that night I left the house leaving every face in a sad mode. While walking to the station I was sad myself. One of the cousins asked me something & I was unable to answer quickly as when I was about to speak I felt the voice stuck in my throat coz of the pain of leaving people behind & especially my mom. I have twice felt this moment of voice getting stuck in my throat. Once when my father died & next was that moment. I was accompanied by my 9 male cousins and according to one of them, this was the first time ever that all the 9 brothers were going to the station to drop someone. I wonder why they created the word drop for this occasion as no one dropped me anywhere.

Reaching the station & even after buying the ticket, I was informed by the station master that the train is full & not even a single seat is available. So I had no choice but to miss that train & that minute all of my 9 cousins were so happy & then me & my army went back home after confirmation the next day’s seat. Before I could reach the house, the news was there that I’m back & the whole family including my mom was so happy to see me back. That night that made Halwa especially for me. Awwww… What a love I received from them.

So the happy moments were back but lasted for only hours as I had to leave next day. So the next day again I had to go through those emotional moments of saying goodbye but this time the pain was a bit less as the rehearsal was already done. That day was goodbye as that day neither I missed the train nor the train was on time. Bloody train was an hour late. That same stupid train took 29 & half hours to reach the destination which was achieved in 25 hours by the train I took to Tando Adam.

It has now been almost a week since I am back but it seems like yesterday. Almost everyday I do receive a miss call or a call from any of my cousins & SMS saying “I miss you”. Even my mom told me that since the day I left the kids were sad & they even got my pictures printed from the mobile camera & they keep watching them. This makes me speechless coz receiving love like this is a blessing. Now looking at the length of this blog, no one is going to believe me being speechless :-)