DAY 426

I feel pain again deep in me. I feel all alone deep in me. I feel lost somewhere deep in me. I don’t know where I am, deep in me. I don’t know who I am, deep in me. There used to be happiness deep in me but now there is nothing but pain deep in me. How should I change all this, deep in me when even I don’t have access deep in me? Well! This is what I can say at the moment from deep in me.

Still not interested in sleeping at nights. Keep myself awake till 5am in the morning & then go to sleep for a few hours. I still can’t find words to write my blog but yesterday did manage to write a few lines of poetry which I am still not sure that are good or bad. Following are the lines:


Lout K Aao Gay Tu Dekho Gay Hum Wahin Hain Kharray
Waqt K Kantoon Nay Zindagi Kay Pannay Hain Jharray

Tum Gaiy Tu Mushkiloon Nay Ghair Lia Achanak Hum Ko
Teray Aanay Ki Aas Liey Dil Main In Say Hain Larray

Kis Tarha Tum Ko Batain Keh Yeh Waqt Kesay Kata
Kashmakash Hai K Ghut Ghut Kay Jiey Ya Hain Maray

Fursat Jo Milay Tu Kabhi Aana Aik Pal Ko Hi Sahi
Ghum Meray Dil Kay Ghata Dena Jo Is Main Hain Bharay


I don’t know why every time when I start writing poetry, it always turns into sad words. Even if I am not feeling sad, I still write sad lines. I have no clue for that. Maybe I am a very very sad man deep inside me.

Pakistan won the two T20 matches from Australia which was quite surprising but well done I would say. On the other hand, Germany seems to be playing really well & they have a match today with Spin & not sure who will win but if Germany do, they will have a great chance to be the champions this time.