DAY 245

First of all I would like to thank my friends on Facebook for reading my blogs & for sending me prayer & best wishes. I really need those as I am about to be in a position where I might stand alone & might loose good friends or maybe I win them.

I’m going through the war of heart & mind again. My heart is asking me to walk on a path that might lead to pain & my brain is saying don’t but I will follow my heart. If I pass the exam on Sunday then upcoming days are more difficult ones. I would again need more prayers & wishes coz the upcoming path is even tougher then the next Sunday. Let’s see what happens. Either I will win or loose. If I win, would be a really happy & great day of my life. If I loose, I would loose all, my smile, my happiness, my stupid sense of humor & maybe my life.

The weather is really cold now. Last night there was only & only fog. I actually drove my bike when at some stage it was zero visibility. While riding the bike I asked my friend to keep his eyes open as he said that he can see. I told him that he is married but I am not. At least let me get married too before I die. Well! Ok that was a joke. At the moment I don’t really want to die coz I might have a chance to win happiness of my life.

Today one of my friend sent SMS saying “No lights”. I replied, “No light, no sugar, no water, no flour, no gas & no leader but still Pakistan is there”… GOD is GREAT… There is no electricity but they have increased the tariffs. There is no pressure in gas but yes, they increased the tariff. Why they hell we should pay more & for what? We don’t even get the thing for which they want us to pay. Sometimes I really wish that if GOD could give me the power of “Invisible” for sometimes, I would have made their lives hell. Yes I’m talking about the stupid & idiotic people in the government. One of the Ministers kept promising that electric load shedding will end after 31 December & that Minister has the ministry of water & power. So it is not the end. You know why? Coz he mentioned the year. The Prime Minister asked him not to make promises & don’t give a dead line. WOW!!!! Isn’t that great?? So it means they don’t want to fix anything & when their 5 years of government will end, they will simply say, “We were about to fix all but we just ran out of time. If we are given another chance, we will do it in the first year & this will be the gift to the public.” How stupid is this public? This public does not deserve gifts. They only deserve poverty so this is the gift for them…