A better day in the office & a busy one as well after a long period of time. I really hope this stay as a better day always give you the power to come to the office next day. Otherwise you start finding office a real boring place & start avoiding it.
Since past a month, almost every blog of mine is on friendship & me. So here I go again. Today a friend is angry with me. Not telling me why but with his few lines, I feel I hurt him. I’m really not sure on what but I asked him twice to let me know what had I done so either I can apologize or at least give an explanation but unfortunately he did not. In my life I have hurt a lot of people. Sometimes being a fool & sometimes accidently. Well! Accidently does not mean with an actual accident. Oh in fact I did that as well. Now I remember there was a time when I was about to kill a friend of mine but really that was purely an accident. So this friend is now hurt & he has asked me indirectly if I dislike him. Well! He asked someone else to ask me & that person did but unfortunately that person did not convey my answer to him. Don’t know why but I think should have.
Life has made me a devil. I’m a dangerous man who can hurt anyone at any stage. GOD! Save people from me. I was never a bad person but somehow situations made me so bad, some of my decisions & my bad luck. I kept on loosing relations all the way in life. Now when I look back, I feel sad as I lost good people & they all have shut the doors of their hearts for me. I’m not saying they did it wrong. They were & are still right. Currently if my friends come to know what is in my past, defiantly they will leave me. I have hidden it from them just so that I can have friends but I feel that someday my past will come & stand in front of me & all these people currently associated with me would not even bother to ask questions. They would all leave. Even if I tell them, they will leave. So I wait for my destiny. I wait for that hate to come. I wait for that anger to come. No I’m not ready at all but this is something I might have to face one day & I actually I deserve it.
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