DAY 173

What a boring day I would say in the office. Tension is increasing in the office as sales are down & I feel so sad about it. Can’t be relaxed with that thought but can only pray for the betterment. Hope this downfall will end soon.

I slept very late last night. Well night is not the right word. It was almost beginning of a new day as the sun was about to rise & I fell down & woke again at almost 8:30 & the first thing I did is I shared. My feelings, no my mobile balance.

In my last blog I wrote that two of my friends were on a war & see it ended in almost 24 hours. I knew it. Both of them would say this is the end but they can’t end it. Let’s see when the next war is scheduled.

There was a time when it was my dream to go to a place where no body knows me & I start a new life. I did it when I came to Pakistan but now I feel doing it again. I really don’t know why but somehow I just want to disappear & go to some unknown destination & start a new life all over. GOD! It’s so hard to do it. It took me almost 6-7 years to establish but now I wanna do it again. Even after this people on the Facebook call me a boring person. Well! Actually I really am. A few days back one of my friend asked me if I live dual lives. Honestly I do. I have two different lives & both lives are hidden from each other. In one life, people know me in some other way & vise versa.

I still have not decided weather I would be meeting my sister or not. She asked me to email before the 30th of the month. I still have 2 days to decide & I really don’t know what to do. She is one year younger than me & we both were really closed to each other when we were young due to almost the same age. So we had spent almost all the childhood playing together but time pass by & we converted into two different people with so many differences. So time really changes you. There is a fight going on between my heart & my brain. One says meet her, other says don’t. I really don’t know who will win but this has to end in a result within two days or then it’s late. Let’s hope for the good.