Sometimes it is so difficult to forgive someone but I did it yesterday. Why? Because only one thing was in my mind. We make mistakes & we expect God to forgive us. We keep on making mistakes & keep asking for forgiveness & He keeps on forgiving. So why can’t we do this? I have decided to do it from now on. So dear friends & dear foes, you are most welcome to hurt me again & again & I will keep on forgiving you again & again. Why am I mentioning this? Because a person who was my friend is now again my friend as I hugged him last night & ended the cold silent war between us. Honestly I have so many reasons to be angry but I really don’t know why I am not. Maybe my anger is dying & I’m not the young angry man anymore.
On the other hand, there is still one more friend that this guy needs to make up with. These two days were really hard on my mind. So many questions, so many thoughts & no answers still. First I tried to find the answers but then I thought it will create more problems to I skipped it.
I actually learnt something from all this. First my valve as a friend which is unfortunately in negative & second that we should always clear things there & then. Giving time to these things & you find yourself messed up with all relations & this keeps on increasing no matter how sorry you feel or how hard you try. In the end, it’s painful.
Somehow I feel that now I’m really tired of all this & cannot take this further. These ups & downs in relations are killing me. Every other day I find someone crying. Every other day I find someone blaming, someone fighting, someone breaking relation & someone feeling sorry. Sometimes that someone is even me but this is it. It is now actually disturbing my professional life as well. I have to stop this. I can do this. I’m no longer going to be involved in any emotional relations. I am now going to be one normal friend who is just passing time with others & moving on. Yes! This is really bad to do but I have no power to take this anymore. I now have only friends. No one is best for me. So no best friend for me anymore. I can be my own best friend coz I am the one who actually knows myself more than others. So my dear friends, if you reading this which I’m hoping you are not, I’m sorry…
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