DAY 162

I used to think that I always choose special people to be my friend but today I discovered I was so wrong. Well! I’m a human too so I did make a mistake. I made a friend that should not be done. I have a person in the office who is always back biting and we can expect anything bad from her and now I have this person who used to be my friend. Well this person is not back biting but he wants friendship on his own terms. Can you believe it? Friendship on terms. Well! I went out of the office to eat something and on my way back I was thinking that I should have made her friend as at least I would know what bad things she can do as here I don’t even know what bad plans he makes. Three four days back he was complaining that how could be people so unfair but now he is doing the same thing. As my relation broke with him, now he wants others to break relations with me. So is this fair? Even though it was totally his fault but as I said yesterday that he will never accept this coz accepting your mistake is one of the hard things. He even tried this before & on the same night he apologized but now he is doing it again. He still wanted me to be friends with him. Why? Maybe he wants to do this again & again with me. I have told my friend with whom this person wants my contact to be stopped that if she wants, she can and I will never complain. Well! Someday he will learn a lesson so I leave this to GOD.

My country is still burning & the government is still sleeping. Lots & lots of blasts all over the country & they say we have put the security on high alert. I know it can’t be stopped but why the hell they always say that we had the info after the attacks? Why no one ask them then why the hell you did not even try to stop it? I wonder if it could ever stop coz every time when I make a friend online & he/she asks me where am I from, I think for a while & then answer as I feel that if I tell them that I’m from Pakistan, they might think of me as a terrorist & would not continue but guess what. I still do tell them that coz this is who I am. What I can do is only pray for peace…