And today I broke up another relation. GOD I’m getting expert in this. You see for me relations like brother, sister, father & mother are now dead. I just hate these relations. Why? Well it’s a question that I am really not interested to answer. I still believe that friendship is better than these relations so I always keep my friends on top of these. I am now enjoying hurting peoples. I love ignoring these relations so for me it’s now just words & nothing much. For me my father was really important as I don’t know why but I loved that person. Really don’t know why I cannot love other relations like I loved my father.
So today I broke a deal myself. The deal of “Friends for ever”. In this deal there were three people including me & one of them wanted to be my relative and as I hate my relatives so I cannot be friends with them. So now new deal with my other friend & told him that deal will continue till he stays as a friend. Once he wants to be my brother or something like that & the deal breaks. Well! So for me these things are now games. I think life itself is a game. You keep on playing while keeping a thought that you want to win, you keep on going. Once you loose that winning part, you loose your life.
Ten days of the Holy month of Ramadan are gone & still I have not turned into a better Muslim. I think now I have to be strict with myself before I even loose in the next world. Yes! I know breaking relation is never a quality of a Muslim but sometimes you have to do it. Why? Ok again I am telling you that I am not interested in answering this question.
Yesterday I wrote, I don’t want anything. No happiness, no sadness, no relations, no friends no nothing. Guess it all started today. WOW! Sometimes my words do come true…
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