After almost 5 & half years, for the first time 2 members of my family met 2 friends of mine. I don’t have any clue what was going in all those 4 minds during the lunch and I won’t even ask coz I think suspense should always be there left in life. Hope all the 4 enjoyed the lunch or should I say almost dinner & hope they all had a good time. I tried to keep quiet as much as possible. One of my friends was perhaps angry with me & she has all the reasons to be in this world. That might be the reason she kept quiet most of the time or maybe she was tired as she came from all the way to Lahore. I can only hope they all did enjoy.
In such type of gathering, I feel scared coz my family knows me so does my friends & I had a feeling they might mention me & discuss my weakness. So a few discussions did take place but all was fine. I really don’t know what is now into me that I feel not talking too much in gatherings. I prefer to keep quiet. I was even walking at the distance from all of them & I really don’t know why. Maybe the pain in me is too much & not letting me speak-up.
The weather outside is awesome. Sky covered with clouds & little drops of water falling that are harmless. I actually shaved today after 3 & half weeks just for this gathering. At the moment I want to take a long walk in this weather but I’m feeling a bit tired & sleepy. Otherwise I would like to walk. Maybe some other day. I’m not even waking up early in the morning nowadays as I used to do but still don’t know why feeling so tired & sleepy. Previously I was up at 7:30 in the morning & nowadays I’m getting up at 11:30 or 12:00pm. One of my family member said in the meeting that someone is really required in my life to change me but I think that someone is no where to be found anymore. Guess! I will not change…
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