5 years back I started a life that was totally strange & it was never planned. I disappeared from one country & left everything behind & came to a new location, a different country, a different city. It took me a long time to settle & last 5 years I never let any single person near to me. People started thinking I’m proud & arrogant. It was not that in me but it was my nature of keeping myself away from people & stayed reserved as I never wanted any interference in my personal life. I kept walking the paths all alone & then I made 2 friends. Now I’m so involved in them. I see them leaving me all alone in this city soon. One of them going to US & the other one away too. I wonder why I feel this pain in me now. I think I was happy without friends. At least I was not feeling this pain. Now I wish I can do it all over again.
They say history repeats it’s self. So maybe I am again planning to do the same. My heart says lets do it but my brain says NO. A friend asked me to move on but when I asked to show me the way, I got no answer. How do you move on? How do you do that? It’s never easy & I just can’t find a way. So please show me a way to move on.
When I was young, it was my dream to go to a city where no one knows me & I’m a total stranger & I wanted people to keep guessing where I came from & what I am. I actually turned my dream into a reality 5 years back so I believe you can achieve your dreams. I have created another dream but this time I cannot turn it into a reality coz this time the dream does not involve only me. It involves someone else as well & I want it to be real but that person doesn’t want it. I see it breaking into pieces. No not the dream but I see myself breaking. Before I break I think I should leave this part of the world & in search of a new venue…
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