DAY 220

I do write best & wonderful days of my life. So today I decided to write the worse one too because on these days we learn a lot and I need all my memories on record so in future when I have to make a decision, I just go back in my days & read them so I can know how to work on a decision.

Let me go back on Friday when I wrote these lines & turned them into a song after almost 5 years. I call it "ACHA HAI"

AUR IS DIL KI AB NA SUNOON GA, TOOT HI JAIEY TU ACHA HAI
KHWAAB HAI MERA TUM KO PANA, TOOT HI JAIEY TU ACHA HAI

SATH KISI KAY TUM KO DEKHA, PYAR RAHA HAI PHIR BHI MUJHKO
TUM PAY HAI MUJH KO ITNA BHAROSA, TOOT HI JAIEY TU ACHA HAI

SAB KEHTAY HAIN DIL HAI SHESHA, SHESHAY PAR TERA NAAM LIKHA
DEKH NA PAYA AKS MAIN APNA, TOOT HI JAIEY TU ACHA HAI

First let me tell you this that Thursday & Friday, my level of luck was really high & I did not know about it. I won 3 bets, two on Thursday & 1 on Friday. I was about to bet on one more thing with my ex-friend. He said that at the end of Friday, my other ex-friend will praise your lines & I said no she will not. So he asked me to bet & I refused as I thought she might would but she never did & damn I missed a chance to win the bet. She never praised it coz these words never mean anything in her life. She is just one practical person.

That night we had plans for the movie on Saturday & I wanted to skip the plan but the one who was my friend & still works with me in the office as my Manager, asked me to let it make a surprise for her. Unfortunately I agreed on that. Damn!! Why the hell I did that???

Since morning one of them knew I was coming but the other one was unaware of it just to surprise her. I think when a trip starts in a bad mood it always ends in the same. So while I was waiting on the side of the road for almost 45 mins where as per plan he has to pick me up while she was with him, no one showed up. I kept on messaging but never got a reply. So I called & what I get was only lies. Since morning I was getting lies from him. Well! What a real talented person he is. At least he can lie in a great manner without breaks. I was standing there & he was telling me that we will go to the movie directly while skipping the lunch coz I am sure by that time they both had their lunch or something to eat at least. So why I was not informed??? He could have messaged me saying have your lunch & then we shall meet but why would he care, he was not a caring friend. So I left home in anger & I told him to skip me from the plan.

When I was at home in front of my computer, he called me but I did not pick up the phone so he messaged me saying she (my other ex-friend) is not feeling well, she is vomiting & I am taking her to the hospital. I clearly told him that this should not be a lie & what I get in reply. “Are you crazy?? I would never do such a thing”. I ran from my home & while doing that I kept asking him to tell me his location. For those 7-8 mins he kept playing with my feelings & I was running on both sides of the road like a crazy person to find them & every minute his location was different coz he was not even there. So this is how you play with feelings…

When I found them & when I was seated in the taxi, I noticed that he actually lied & made the whole thing up. WHAT A SURPRISE!!!!! He even asked me not to call her as she didn’t want me to know. I trusted that liar. That minute he lost a friend coz he never cared. I wanted to leave the taxi that min but I knew that we had to pick one more person & if we would not do that then this liar would be again a lair in front of his own brother & honestly there was no fault of his brother. I never knew that when I called his brother, he was sleeping otherwise I would have left the taxi the min it passed near my house.

During the journey to the cinema, he messaged me saying relax. I wish I could just smashed his face but unfortunately I used to call him a friend. So many times I have told my friends that when I am in anger, I avoid conversations coz I know I become rude & that is what exactly happened but you know why that happened? Coz they never ever tried to understand me. They always skipped my lines in any message coz I was just a joker in those three who can make others laugh.

We went to the movie & we saw 2012 but in those 2:30 hours, I don’t even remember a single scene from the movie. Throughout that time I was just asking myself why in the hell I was there. I wanted to leave but I was there for no reason. I kept myself quiet & I even ignored people I love & respect. After the movie ended, I apologized lair’s brother regarding my behavior & left all alone. I actually walked half the way back home.

Reaching home I discovered through messages that she was actually asking me not to blame him as he is not a machine & mistakes do happen. She even messaged me that everyday I make almost 20 mistakes but she never says anything. If that is the case, thank you for bearing me all that time. Regarding humans & mistakes, if you keep on ignoring mistakes, they end up in a mess & something like this happened but I’m sure no body cares. Mistakes are made ones. Both of them were telling me that he lied coz he wanted me to be with them. Let me ask you both, if I was not coming, then who the hell waited at the side of the road for almost 45 mins & who the hell went with you without eating anything to the movie. If he wanted me to be there then why the hell he did not come & if he was late then when is he on time?? One of them asked me to ignore so I have decided. I have ended all relations. I will ignore. I will never ever trust his words in my life & if there is no trust, there can’t be any relation. Becoz of him I turned into a rude person, coz of him I had ignored his brother & coz of him I had fights with my family when I reached home. Regarding my other ex-friend, for her I know what I was & what I am, just an emotional foooooool. I ended with her coz she was taking his side & was defending his mistakes. She was only pointing my mistakes. She even asked me not to take it serious. You know why? Coz she never took me serious. So they both lost me. I’m sure they would be happy now coz I know it never makes a difference if a joker is not there.

Before I end this, let me tell you something. The lines for the song I wrote on Friday came true the very next day. It all got broken in the end… (ACHA HAI)

Thank you both for such a wonderful day…