Monday, November 30, 2009

DAY 207

Two days of EID are gone & I would say really boring days. Nothing much to do but sit in front of the TV or computer & again doing or gaining nothing. I wanted to plan it good but somehow I failed. Well! To all my readers & to all Muslims around the world, EID MUBARAK & may you all have a wonderful life ahead.

For the past so many days I have been living two different lives. Trying to be someone but can’t be & will not be but still I forget that & I keep trying. I have to stop it but somehow I’m failing to do that. & I wish I could really do it. If I could have one last wish, I would ask to remove last few months from my stupid memory.

How many times in life your brain & your heart fight with each other?? It has been happing for the past few days. My brain says no, my hearts says yes & it keeps on going but I stand there finding myself going nowhere. Could I stop these voices in me, the voice of heart or the voice of brain? Could I stop anyone of them? I really don’t want to listen to any of those coz both of them have their stupid reasons but for me, it’s just confusing & very painful. I really want to stop now but I fail every time. Maybe part of me doesn’t want to stop because I know I can do anything once I put my mind into it. I can’t explain what’s going in me in words as somehow I even fail to express myself in words…

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