DAY 138

Second day of EID is about to end & honestly these two days are also about to pass in the same manner as all my regular days. Nothing interesting or no excitement but one thing was there. I actually did not get bore as both the days I had to be in the office. Both were half days for me so yes, the time passed or should I say slipped away. First day in the office was much better than the second one coz on the second day, I & my friend were the only two in the office & we hardly spoke during the fours hours of our duty. Something is bothering him and he does not want to share so he kept quiet & as I don’t like to interfere in anyone’s personal life so I did not ask. One thing I do like about myself (Sorry for self praising) that I can keep myself busy & can enjoy my own company coz I have been with me for the past 31 years. So I did not let the office environment that quiet. I kept on singing songs as there was not much to do honestly & someone has to break the ice.

I am still unable to sleep at nights & I keep myself busy online. No I don’t chat at night but yes do watch movies as it’s still getting hard for me to sleep. I wonder who stole my sleep. Soon I would have to register a complaint against it but honestly you would never want to go to a police station for anything at all. You go there for an FIR & even for that they charge. It’s not a public service department anymore. It’s a general store where you have to buy everything. So pray that you never get a chance to visit that store.

Hopefully from tomorrow all the offices & banks would be opened & back in operations. Life will be back to normal. After 30 days of fasting & developing the habit of not eating & drinking during the day, it’s now getting hard for me to have my lunch. I hardly drink any water during the day coz somewhere in my brain I still feel that I’m fasting.

When EID comes, the first thing that pops up into my mind is expanses & then happiness nowadays. So after spending huge amounts on shopping, the whole budget got disturbed & I was in a bit of tension since morning as I knew what I am left with & the way I have to spend the up coming last week of this month. When we actually trust in Allah, he helps or shows a way to walk. So I was just talking with him deep in my heart & was asking for his guidance. While doing this something came to my mind. Actually few days back I kept some amount in the house (location is hidden) & suddenly that came to my brain. I quickly walked to that location & actually found it there & that was an actual relief. See, HE actually helps when we ask for. Well! This is the only reason I shared this part as to let you know that it actually works. So please keep your trust in Allah & HE will guide you.