DAY 120

So another day passed in life. Last night I had a fight with a person online that I personally never knew. I had been rude to him for no reason. I was so tired & sleepy after the long day & Nikkah ceremony that I started being rude with him for no reason & he is a friend of one of my family’s member. After 20-30 minutes passed, I just sent him an apology offline message & told him that how sorry I was feeling. After that I went to sleep.

Today I started a new day with no excitement in life & no destination. Somehow I just have to pass the day. So I did the usual thing that I do everyday & then to the office. There everyone wanted to know the story about the Nikkah ceremony so I just asked them to read the blog coz I cannot explain every moment as some things are meant to keep in the corner of your heart. My dear friend disappointed me today. Yesterday he got married & today he changed. Well! I honestly have no expectation from anyone anymore. That is the only reason I say that I don’t have any best friend but just friends as when you start making them best then you expect more from them & if at some stage they do not fall on your expectation then you get yourself hurt. I SMS him and while saying something during SMS exchange, I used his wife’s name as I always used to do but today he mind & said don’t call her by name. For you she is “BHABI” (Brother’s wife) & I just replied him saying don’t worry I would never call her anyway. This was really not good to say. Why do you mind now when you never did before & why should I call her BHABI when I don’t keep relations like brother & sister with anyone and especially with friends? I am elder than both of them so why can’t I call her by name? You see this is the only reason I don’t call anyone best because with the passage of time they change & then at some stage they can’t be best.

The person with whom I had a fight online last night, he added me on the messenger & then he asked me to be his big brother. I don’t really know why but whom ever I involve in a fight, they always transfer into my friends at some stage of life. I told him that sorry I don’t keep relations like brother & sister but we can always be friends if you like. He said why you don’t keep these relations. So I answered him that I always ended up breaking those. He said do you know that the person who breaks relation would never enter the Heaven. I had no answer but one. One person can never run a relation alone. So what if no one is with me. I have GOD with me. That is the only reason I love the following song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ab2pMJY65i0


AIK DIN KISI FAQEER NAY, IK BAAT KAHI THI
AB JAKAY DIL NAY MANA, WOH BAAT SAHI THI
JIS KA KOI NAHI US KA TO KHUDA HAI YAROON
MAIN NAHI KEHTA, KITABOON MAIN LIKHA HAI YAROON

HUM TO KIA HAIN WOH FARISHTON KO AZMATA HAI
BANA KAR HUM KO MITATA HAI PHIR BANATA HAI
ADMI TOOT KAY SO BAAR JURA HAI YAROON
JIS KA KOI NAHI US KA TO KHUDA HAI YAROON

IMTAHANON KA YAHAN DOOR YOHIN CHALTA HAI
ANDHIYON MAIN BHI UMEEDON KA DIA JALTA HAI
KAL KI UMEED PAY INSAAN JIA HAI YAROON
JIS KA KOI NAHI US KA TO KHUDA HAI YAROON

KAB TALAK HUM SAY YEH TAQDEER BHALA ROTHAY GI
IN ANDHEROON SAY UJALAY KI KIRAN PHOTAY GI
GHUM KAY DAMAN MAIN KAHIN CHAIN CHUPA HAI YAROON
JIS KA KOI NAHI US KA TO KHUDA HAI YAROON
MAIN NAHI KEHTA, KITABOON MAIN LIKHA HAI YAROON