DAY 356

This is really strange now. It’s like I’m loosing the power of writing. It is now being very difficult for me to write even a few lines. I can’t SMS, I can’t write my blog. This is really strange. I used to be the one who could continue a conversation on chats or SMS for hours & hours. I had the power to pop-up topics during conversations so even the other person doesn’t get bored but now after a few SMS or lines, I find myself blank. I feel like I can’t SMS or chat further & I just quit. I don’t know what’s going on & why but now my friends are thinking I am ignoring them which is somehow true because I am not answering every SMS & after a while I just quit sending SMS so yes in a sense I am ignoring. I do apologies to all but I just don’t know why all this is happening. Just to write these lines, it almost took me 20 minutes.

The weather once again is absolutely fantastic. The rain showers last night turned it into romantic & heart touching. This time summer is some how interesting as a few days it gets hot & then suddenly it rains & drains all the hotness of the weather.

There I go blank again. Don’t know what to write or what to say. I can’t understand why it is happening. I have been writing blogs since long now. It is almost one year & next month on my birthday it will be exactly one year of writing here. Wow! I know I had skipped lots of days but somehow I did manage to keep writing. So upcoming birthday I will celebrate my blog’s anniversary as well.

Two of my friends wanted to throw a surprise party for me on my birthday but somehow the news leaked & I have told them that I might not celebrate my birthday as I never do that. I don’t cut cake or put candles there. I still remember last year only 3-4 people congratulated me on by birthday. Let’s see what happens this time. By the way why do we celebrate this day in our lives? We were not involved in the process of birth. We were the ones that did nothing at that time. If we look it this way, we should be sad on this day as one more year of our life is gone & we still have not achieved anything in life. At least I did not. I still find myself at a zero position in life. Lots of goals & not a single path for me to walk on. It is the time when life is spending me & me not spending life.