DAY 1189

I see a few Muslims asking this question…

“Can Muslims be friends with non Muslims?”

Then people answer with these verses from the Holy Quran:

O' you who have believed, do not take the Jews and the Christians as allies. They are [in fact] allies of one another. And whoever is an ally to them among you - then indeed, he is [one] of them. Indeed, Allah guides not the wrongdoing people.
(Surat Al-Maidah Verse 51)

O' you who have believed, do not take My enemies and your enemies as allies, extending to them affection while they have disbelieved in what came to you of the truth, having driven out the Prophet and yourselves [only] because you believe in Allah , your Lord. If you have come out for jihad in My cause and seeking means to My approval, [take them not as friends]. You confide to them affection, but I am most knowing of what you have concealed and what you have declared. And whoever does it among you has certainly strayed from the soundness of the way.
(Surat Al-Mumtahanah Verse 1)

After this an argument starts that what the Arabic word Wali means in the verse. Some say it means friends but most say no, it means the protector & so on. Those who wants to be friends with them they say it is protector & those who don’t want to be friends with them, says it means friend. Then they give logics that if marriage is allowed with them then why can’t we be friends with them. Now we all know that marriage is allowed with the people of book. The ones who follow the holy books sent by Allah. Nowadays no Christian aur Jewish follow the book. Also only Muslim men can marry the ladies from them, Muslim women are not allowed. This was a way to save ladies from hell that belongs to those religions. We all know that expect Europe, in all the other countries man is always powerful in the family so he can actually convert the lady to Islam not by force but by teaching her gradually. On the other hand, a lady can never try making her husband understand coz men don’t listen to them mostly. So if a lady will try to teach him, she will hear the answer go to hell or shut-up. Where as a man can try making his wife understand & women do listen to them. Although Umer Bin Khattab (May Allah be pleased with him) did not like Muslims to marry Non Muslims & he wanted them to stick to Muslim ladies.

Now let’s come back to the main question.

I will not use a reference from Quran or hadees. I will just ask one simple question to that Muslim who ask this question. How come you be a friend with a person who join people with Allah (Do Shirk) & who do not even accept Muhammad SallAllahu Alayhi Wasallam as a Messenger of Allah? How come?? Have your love for Allah & His Messenger only this much that you start making those people friends that are against the teachings of Allah & His Messenger? Have all the Muslims in the world have died that you need to make them your friend? How come for you Allah & His Messenger is not that important but a friendship with them is & you try to find verses & hadees to support your actions so you can make them friends? If your aim is to make them revert to Islam then yes, go ahead & be their friends & try. But this you don’t do. You call them your best friend & share everything with them but you never tell them once that the path they are walking is going to take them to hell. No, you talk on everything but on religion. Even then you call yourself friend to that person. What kind of a friendship is this that you let them walk on the path of hell & don’t even try stopping them? You don’t make friends, you just time pass with them and just for your time pass you make friends with the enemy of Allah & His messenger.

I go and ask any Muslim this question, do you love Allah, do you love Muhammad SallAllahu Alayhi Wasallam and he/she will answer YES but if I ask about their hairstyle or their fashion they will tell you about some movie actor that they copied from.

The Satan plays with our minds. He tells us that Allah will forgive you and this thinking makes us keep doing all evil things and we keep thinking that Allah will forgive us. Dear Muslims, Yes Allah is “The Forgiving” & “The All-Merciful” but at the same time He is also the one Who will punish those who did not follow. So how come you only remember “The Forgiving”? He has 99 names & He has said it in Quran that He will punish & we all know that He only speaks the truth & keeps His promises.

DAY 1170

A lot in my mind & life there is to write but every time when I write, people get offended. So keeping myself quiet is much better in these situations most of the time.

Life is changed. Totally changed. The change is great but lost a lot. I lost almost all old friends in a few days but I don’t mind loosing people when it comes to the decision I made. I started walking on a path that I should have been walking since my birth. The path of my religion, the only religion … Islam. Every time when you will walk on the path of Allah &; His messengers, defiantly people will start walking away & let them walk away, it is not important for me anymore. The only important thing for me is now my religion. The happy thing is that now I am totally relaxed.

My mother is not feeling well. I hope the best health for her. I lost my father time back & now I don’t want to lose my mom although I know everyone will leave this world but I really want a chance to be with her & want to take care of her. Wish Allah give me this chance.

Ramadan is almost here & I love this month. I enjoy the change in all Muslims during this month but I wish all of us keep the Islam alive not only in this month but every day of life. Nowadays I am reading Sahih Bukhari & I am really loving it. There were so many info that I did not know about my religion & by the blessing of Allah I came to know a lot.

Narrated by Abu Dhar (Razi Allahu Tala Anhu)…
The Prophet (SallAllahu Alayhi Wasallam) said:
Jebriel said to me, 'Whoever amongst your followers die without having worshipped others besides Allah, will enter Paradise (or will not enter the (Hell) Fire)." The Prophet asked. "Even if he has committed illegal sexual intercourse or theft?" He replied, "Even then.”
(Sahih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 54, Number 445)

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Narrated by Abu Huraira (Razi Allahu Tala Anhu)…
The Prophet (SallAllahu Alayhi Wasallam) said:
As long as any-one of you is waiting for the prayer, he is considered to be praying actually, and the angels say, 'O Allah! Be merciful to him and forgive him', (and go on saying so) unless he leaves his place of praying or passes wind (i.e. breaks his ablution).
(Sahih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 54, Number 452)

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Narrated by Abu Huraira (Razi Allahu Tala Anhu)…
Allah's Messenger (SallAllahu Alayhi Wasallam) said:
If a husband calls his wife to his bed (i.e. to have sexual relation) and she refuses and causes him to sleep in anger, the angels will curse her till morning.
(Sahih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 54, Number 460)

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Narrated by Aisha (Razi Allahu Tala Anha)…
The Prophet (SallAllahu Alayhi Wasallam) said:
Fever is from the heat of the (Hell) Fire, so cool it with water.
(Sahih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 54, Number 485)

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Narrated by Abu Huraira (Razi Allahu Tala Anhu)…
The Prophet (SallAllahu Alayhi Wasallam) said:
If anyone of you rouses from sleep and performs the ablution, he should wash his nose by putting water in it and then blowing it out thrice, because Satan has stayed in the upper part of his nose all the night.
(Sahih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 54, Number 516)

Thought I share these with all Muslims & nothing more to say for now :)…

DAY 1139

4th of June 2012 (Monday) I got a chance to visit “The Arena” in Islamabad with one of my friend to watch “The Avengers 3D”. The experience was wasted. There was no such thing as 3D there. Sound was great & the hall is nicely decorated but when it comes to 3D, you could see the movie without glasses. Me & my friend had a great argument on their FB page but they never accepted the fault. They first blamed the glasses we used then later said that they will always remember us as we are welcome to watch the next show in VIP sittings. Now the way they wrote “they will always remember us”, makes me think that if next time I ever go there & tell them that it’s me MIB, their staff will throw me out & will beat me with 3D effects :D. Awww I guess they got angry :D. Well! Angry was my friend & he still is that according to him he will never step into Arena again to waste his money.

Last few days of life were tough. Tough moments teach you a lot. Sometimes the stress goes beyond your control & the easiest way to escape is to die but death is not the solution. Although I know a number of people who pray for death but when it comes to advice, they tell me don’t run from problem, face them :P.

Face reminds me of 2 face people. I wonder what pleasure one can have trying to destroy a relation while creating misunderstandings between two & then explaining it in such a foolish manner that “I was trying to help”. Wow!! That helps a lot :D. Thank you so much for helping, No no seriously I’m thankful coz in the end I was able to get rid of someone who play games well. Don’t want to go deep in this discussion as I still consider it as my personal matter but due to irresponsibility of a member of my family, it was all public but yes, one thing I would like to say that it is always easy to point at others & insult others on public forms & even I have the ability to do that too but if I do the same, how would I be better?

Last Saturday I got a pleasure to be part of 1 hour long Islamic recording for Mobilink Islamic corner. Well! To be honest, in the whole recording, it was all my part. The concept was “End of time” & while I was given the script, I learned a lot. According to one Hadees, when nonqualified people would be handling the matters, wait for Qayamat (Judgment day). Looking at my country’s government, I can feel we are not that far anymore. There are some more Hadees which says, when bribe will be considered as a gift, when people will only say salam to the people they know, when people will sell their faith for little amounts… yes these signs are the signs of Qayamat coming closer. Really being a Muslim, we have to start thinking that we are actually walking on that path which was told by the Messenger of Allah 1400 years back. I pray that may Allah guide us all for the right direction.

Yesterday, a politician died. Not going to talk about her life as she has passed away & may Allah’s blessing be upon her. The only reason I am mentioning this is coz this same politician at number of stages in her life defended the actions of her party leaders like the PM or President and today when she was laid to rest, none of them showed up. Wow!! What a loyalty. The PM can visit the funeral of a Saudi Prince who not even at one stage showed his loyalty to the PM but he cannot visit a member of his own party. All what they want is an excuse to fly outside the country to have fun on public tax. Oh, tax reminds me, why the hell do people pay property taxes in Pakistan? Who the hell made this law? I buy a land, I built my house with all my expanses, if my house gets destroyed in fire or in earthquake, I lost everything. Then why the hell I pay tax on something that is purely my own? I purchased it once & pay taxes yearly for what? For our respected PM & his 54 useless, non-qualified, pathetic & corrupt ministers along with their father of corruption can enjoy world tours?? Oh by the way, the number of ministers are much more than that. This figure was taken from a government’s website which obviously never tells the truth. :D

DAY 1115

So at last after so much waiting for the semi-finals of the badminton tournament at the office, I lost the match but the good part was that I lost from the person who is the champion & at one stage of the game he was in so much pressure when he was about to lose. So I did give him a very tough time. Although I lost but I don’t feel that much sad coz I did try & the game never went one sided. Now let’s hope we do get a Cricket match arrange by the office as well.

Also today my belated birthday was celebrated with my colleague & my boss. All the 3 birthday boys lost the matches in the tournament. Yeah! Not a good gift & all got unlucky birthday treats :D. Better luck next time on next birthday if I get the chance to live that long :).

On my last blog, I did get one comment on FB saying my blogs are getting lengthy so I have decided to keep this short as it might get harder for people to read. Although everyone don’t even read these but still I intend to write as long as I can. Although at some stage I do feel running out of words & then I give gaps to the blogs so I can gather words & events to share. Also one more comment I got on my last blog that I should be writing in news papers as I criticized the politicians & the government in my last blog. Basically this is one way of reducing my anger against them. Even if I be writing in papers won’t do anything coz the public is stupid and they want it be punished so they will keep voting these jerks.

The weather here at this moment is too cool. After long hot days, today its wind all over. The speed of the air is really great. It is 30 mph. Although very less chance of rain but I hope it rain soon as I know on weekend the WAPDA will keep attacking a lot. So let’s hope it rains…

DAY 1107

For the third time the Semi-finals & the finals of the Badminton Tournament at office has been postponed & now hopefully will be held next Friday. Hopefully :D. The delay is killing the charm of the tournament. Even a belated birthday party for me & my colleague will be held on the same day in the office along with my boss who is also my partner in Badminton.  Let’s hope the birthday thing make us win.

Our most respected Prime Minister who was sentenced for 30 sec & has a name in book of record for being a convicted is still having lots of fun & trips all around & even after the complete verdict from the SC, no action been taken so far. Wow! This is democracy. This same sooooooooooooooo much respectful PM answered a question to CNN which was like slapping 18 crore public & honestly this shameless public do deserve lots of slaps. The question was:

Becky Anderson: 

As per latest Gallup poll, one-fifth of Pakistanis want to leave the country...

PM (While smiling shamelessly):

Why don’t they just leave then? Who’s stopping them?

Becky Anderson shocked & PM, bloody hell if I could hit him with rocks.

So next time when election comes, please vote for these parties again as at least they are not stopping us from going abroad.

Oh by the way, Pakistan’s Federal Minister for Water and Power claimed 6 days ago that unannounced load-shedding will be end in 24 hours & we all are still waiting for 24 hours to finish. Also if anyone can please ask this stupid character that since when do they announce load shedding & where do they announce it? He said Power crisis is national issue. He is right. Power in wrong hand is indeed a Crisis & a National issue we have to face every day.

Also Foreign Minister, said that reopening NATO supplies was in the interest of Pakistan. She forgot to mention President of Pakistan & by mistake skipped those words. So now policy changed in few minutes & demand of an apology is forgotten when the US told that Pakistan would receive one billion dollars in Coalition Support Fund. Well Not to Pakistan but to the Government only. This amount or any other amount will not be given to the families of the soldiers that died. Who care about them? Let them die. Who needs an apology? What would that do? US will pay $365 million more a year for NATO supplies & wow that is enough.  Fill your accounts as much as you can before the elections coz after that who knows if stupid public vote for someone else which is I'm sure won’t be the case. We will still see the same crooks & same shameless faces again in the government. So now you know how much is the value of 28 dead soldiers & 100 more people attached with them. This info you will never learn in books so thank you bloody government & bloody politicians...

DAY 1100

Let me write all this down before my brain says “Oops! I forgot”. Honestly I have a lot to write & I wonder why I waited this long. Had some great time with FB friends on a number of occasion and again it was quite fun but before that, let me start from the start :P.

May 08, 2012 not only I was born but even my blog was born so my blog completed 3 years of my boring words. Now now… no need to clap its fine. It’s still just a kid so it won’t even mind. 3 years back on this day after reading my blog I noticed that my friend who is now in USA forgot to wish me that day & since than on every birthday of mine he keeps doing that :D. Wow! Now that is what you call consistency. We all should be proud that we have people doing good job around us :D. A few others even forgot this time but the best part was that my dear Aamir Saleem (Pakistani Singer) did not forget wishing me this time which was quite a surprise as well as a gift itself for me.

One of my FB friends has come all the way from Karachi to meet us & to attend a marriage ceremony. Friday 04th May, 2012, I got the chance to meet my friend & it was a very short meeting of almost 5 mins as I had to be in the office & had to attend badminton tournament. How can I forget the tournament? Wow! It was great fun & excitement not because we are in semi-finals but overall it was fun. Now the semi-finals & the final would be played hopefully on 18th May, 2012 & so far me & my boss played well & hope to win it insha-Allah.

Due to the wedding ceremony, I did even get a chance to visit Kashmir (RAWLAKOT) for the first time along with my Karachi friend & my FB friends here whose sister got married. It was a great experience. The weather was ok the scenery was not much of an attraction to me as I have been to Murree & it is same during the travel. So maybe I did not feel any attraction to it but yes not to forget the driver & his music collection. Wow! I mean someone should have reminded him that we are going on a wedding not on a funeral. The conductor did mention that driver’s GF left him & I did ask him weather it was our fault that he is punishing us but now I know why she left. It must be due to the music collection :D.

During the travel of almost 3 hours I did get the chance to sit with my FB friend who came all the way from Karachi to meet me & others. We had some fun talk & yes not to forget the wheat biscuits that saved me from hunger as I had to get up early in the morning at 07:30am & had to catch the bus without having my Breakfast. For you guys out there, it would be normal to wake up at that time but for me, it’s like a nightmare :D. The ceremony went quite well & the Kofta(s) were really tasty. Did get a chance to take some pics but never got a chance to see them as one angry young man broke the memory card of the camera so all in brain but not on snaps. On the way back we again asked the driver to put some good music but as usual he again planned to punish us. So we decided to play our own & 2 teams (guys & girls) playedAntakshari. Those who don’t know what the hell is that, Google it :P. The game went so cool. That was the most fun part of the trip I would say. Eventually it was a draw. Although at one stage the girls did sing this song “Hum Tu Dil Se Haaray” (We lost by heart) & we all thought they had accepted from the bottom of their heart that they have lost :D but they started shouting no no this is the song. Not to forget how one song that some might hate “Why this Kolaveri Di” saved the male generation from shame of loosing :D. Yes! It was a moment when we had lost all hopes to find one song starting with “W” when one of us suddenly woke-up & saved us.

Monday 07th May, 2012, 8 FB friends joined together & had some great moments that we can always remember but can’t explain. Yes! It was the first time I was along with 7 FB friends & was having some great time. The walk, the talk, the visit of museum, the 3D motion-ride, the jail & the just married car, all moments were like wow & maybe some of us might want to go back in time & have all that once again. I have been one lucky guy to meet so many online friends at different occasion but this one was special as it had 7 at one time around me. Now I am just waiting for the pics & this time I hope to see all of them just like I had hopes in Kashmir :D.

This birthday for me was some how special. Lots & lots of wishes that always give u a reason to smile, feel happy, feel important & lucky that I have friends that are great. A few gifts that I received were awesome like a mobile set all the way from Lahore & a wrist watch all the way from Karachi & two lovely birthday cards & still two more gifts are pending. Honestly it is not the gift that only makes u feel special but yes the wishes means a lot.

Thank you all my lovely friends for you lovely wishes & love :) :)

DAY 1072

Ten years back on 11 April, I lost my dad… After few days after recovering, I wrote an article which I would like to share with you all. Although it has always been there on my website man-in-brightness.webs.com/articles.html under the name of  ” Tragedy as well as a reality”, but today I like you all to read what I felt that day.

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Tragedy as well as a reality

A man who loved me & wanted me to be with him as long as he lived, I lost him. Yes! It’s a tragedy but as well as a reality as one day we all have to leave this universe. It's perhaps my good luck that I was with him till his last breath & perhaps it was my bad luck that I was unable to do anything as first time in my life I felt useless.

11th of April 2002 was the day when for the first time I saw a death from the most near spot. Today perhaps no one can understand my feelings. Today I do believe in death. I think it was a moment that GOD conveyed a message to me that death is a reality & I must not forget.

It's really hard to loss someone you love & someone you have been watching since you were born. It's even harder to see someone you love die in your own arms but the hardest part is to hide your tears & fears when the rest of the family is looking only towards you. Being the eldest is not that easy when it comes to responsibilities. I never took any tension during my life, not even during my exams as I think I was one of those students who used to live normal lives during exams. Normal life here means the way you live while there is no exam. Life itself is an exam & every step is difficult.

Am I getting bore? Perhaps I am but today I can't help you because I'm helpless. It's really easy to say that I'm always going to be there for you but when it comes to be there, most are difficult to find but at each & every moment GOD is with you no matter you care or not.

I have seen people crying while someone dies. It's true that you can't stop your tears but it's also true that you can't bring anyone back. So, why waste tears & die with the dead one. Prayers are the best we can do for a dead one & it is something in our hands. That is perhaps the only reason I still haven't cried. It doesn't mean that I don't love my father. I think I love him a lot but how much is hard to tell, as it is hard to calculate love.

Being a Muslim I'm really proud of my father. I'm happy for him that he was buried in the Holy Land of Makkah. Many of us can just wish for it but his wish came true. Born in Gawadaspur (India), died & buried in the Holy Land of Makkah (Saudi Arabia). What else you want in life except respect & honor? This is what my father got while he left this world.

Still it's hard to believe that I lost him. While I was leaving his grave just after burying him, I was telling myself to look back as I really have lost him but I continued to walk towards the gate, as I did not want to cry. Why should I cry? I haven't lost him. He's here somewhere. I can feel him. Perhaps he's living in my memories. In fact he is living here. I can only say that I'm proud to be his son & I wish that just for once he could come back & say that he's proud of me.

 --- Man In Brightness (Date: 18/04/2002)

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DAY 1067

Sometimes in life you have to take a decision that your heart says no but you still take it. Although it is the most painful thing to do but sometimes you have to carry pain within you to make you strong enough to walk futher in life. People say I have lots of flaws in me. I totally agree. I hurt people, I play with their feelings. I pretend to eb soemone, I walk away from them, I become selfish at number of occaions and many more things I do but behind every action of mine I carry a reason. A reason that people might not understand or they might disagree with it. We all have our own way of looking at things. I carry negative things in me a lot & a few positive points too. To every person around me I did tell once that I am not a good guy at all but they didn’t belive. Once they get hurt by me, they realize it. Hope you people reading this realize it now that I can hurt a lot.

Talking about decisions, one of my friends took one too & yesterday night he left the country. I did not get the change to meet him due to his busy scheduele & his very late night departure. I wanted to go but I had lack a of transportation and comminication. I wish him all the best in life & may he have a wonderful life there.

After 5 years of my life being alone, I started a freindship relation with him in this city. A city where still I have no friends after his departure. In this city now I feel alone. This is one reason I hate relationships coz one day or other they come to an end. Although you people would be thinking that he just left the country so how come it ends, well! When a gaps comes in a relation, it never feels the same.

On my last trip to sahiwal a friend gifted me a card. This card has shinning borders that is why the light effect made it not look so well but in actual the card is beautiful. The first lines on the card says:

“You are my sweeto friend andwill be friend till…agay khud he samjh jaye… Ha Ha Ha”

My friend has left a space for me to fill the date. I hope the day won't come coz it hurts when a relation ends.

Two weeks back we had a baby guest for just one day. Yes this male cat that I found wondering outside my house. I fed him & let him stay for a day & in that one day he won my heart. So loving creature I would say. He even slept with me. The other 3 adult cats did not like this at all so I had to give him to someone who was for a long time asking for a cat.

So today my blog says almost everything comes to an end and so will life one day. If my life comes to an end, please do forgive me for hurting you, playing with feelings, insulting or in any other way if I had been bad with you coz oneday everyone has to leave…

DAY 1055

I’m back on my blog after so long. It always feels like home. Well! To be honest it is not that long, only a few weeks. Anyway, I’m back with lot to share. Had a great trip to Sahiwal & Lahore which will be memorable till long I guess. Don’t know how to start what to share but in 24 hours I collected some great memories that will stay with me lifetime. The trip included me & a few others. The good thing is that I found them all on Facebook. Never thought that I will have a trip with FB friends. People say that FB is fake & people out there are fake. I disagree with them. Fake are everywhere, you can find them around you as well but I have been blessed with great people around me & even on FB.

Thursday night I started my journey to Jhelum which I had to start on Friday night but plan changed. Well! It kept changing so many times :D. Anyway, my long journey started at late night & I reached Jhelum at almost 2am. There I met my very close & lovely friend & her bro. With them we travelled Lahore. During the journey we had some fun times fighting in words that why this why that but later it converted into a brilliant conversation & a fantastic journey. This was the first time ever I was reaching before time to every single destination. Within 2 hours I was in Jhelum, 3 hours I was in Lahore & 2:30 hours I was in Sahiwal. Sounds normal but no it was not. This never happens while travelling local in Pakistan. It was the first time like everything was going on time.

Reaching Sahiwal Comsat Campus & meeting some more lovely friends was great. Can’t forget the biryani experience. The friend that made the biryani warned us that if we do not appreciate her cooking, she will not serve us. So at every bite we were like wow what a biryani. To be honest biryani was very tasty as in we did finish it all. See, it proves it was tasty :D.

I have been to the Campus before twice but friends that I picked from Jhelum, it was their first visit. We had some great photo shots, lots of laughs, emotion exchange and even the ice-cream. Meeting moments are always so great but when the time comes to leave, it always gives a pain inside. This is why I really hate goodbyes but one way or other, it has to happen.

Leaving Sahiwal was emotional but our next destination was Lahore so we still had a hope to have some more fun left. Although a fear was there that half of the trip is gone & somehow we all wanted more time together. It’s so strange that happiness is always there for such a less time period than sadness.

So we reached Lahore in time. Yes! Again in time. Don’t know should I be happy about it or sad coz I wanted the day to be long. Another friend welcomed us there & from there we travelled to Fortress. Somehow Lahore traffic changed it. Changed what? The travelling time blessing. We got jammed for more than an hour in front of Fortress. Yes blessing time over now :D. Now is the suffering time :). Met another cute lovely friend for the first time & had dinner with her. Dinner was fun as someone was tired, someone was tensed as her mother was calling & someone was seeing people double. No one was drunk but I don’t know how come she saw us double :D. Lots of teasing during the dinner & then back to the bus stand for the last destination. The time was too short but all the moments were too big to carry around.

The last 4 hours of the journey were quit like we had all words lost but only feelings left inside us & too much emotional. Why? Coz a wonderful journey came to an end. After dropping my friends at Jhelum on the way back home, I was all alone in the end starring the roof of the bus & asking myself, what the hell? It all ended? So fast? Just like a dream? Yes! Just like a dream. So I slept in the bus to have another dream but I don’t know if I saw a dream or not but I did miss my stop :D… Yes! This proves I was missing something :D…

DAY 1036

Sometimes we do want to say a lot but few rules of life stops us. SO I keep something to me & not planning to share it here. Someone asked me today that what did I do that you & other broke all relations with him. I answered him with a single line that you said you don’t want anyone. This is so strange. People want something, when you give them what they want they ask questions. Anyways once someone told me that he heard that MIB always have answers which was a great compliment for me but then I thought am I Google or Wikipedia. Jokes apart but being a human I can’t have every answer. By the way I remember asking someone a question last night & still I have not received an answer and I think I won’t too.

So many days and I had nothing to share. Every day I wanted to write but then I did not. Reason? People accused me of always criticizing others. So I had so many ones to criticize but I did not coz then I will be the evil one :D.

My friend is planning to leave the country & somehow deep inside me I feel sad. Here in this city, I was only sharing my feelings with him & he had always been there in my bad & good moments. Now when he is about to leave, it is like I will be losing someone. Whenever I used to travel without my family, somewhere back in my head I always knew he is there so if any emergency, he will look after them but now it’s like I will be losing not just a friend but more than a family member. We had so much fun in 3 & half years of relation. Been to Lahore twice, had fun & now when I would plan to travel I will be all alone. I am so bad in expressing myself face to face so I am taking advantage of this platform to inform him that I will miss him a lot & I wish him a great life in future.

Damn!!! It took me a whole month to write only this? :-D

DAY 1007

The medicine is working. I did feel the difference today. Less pain in my finger joint. Hope it will end just like lots of other things do come to an end. Yesterday I missed a part to write on the blog. While reading the name of medicine, I always ask myself one question. Why the hell they call it that name? I mean so many hundred thousand of medicines are out there with different name so how come they come up with the names of every single medicine. I mean where the hell they find such strange names? Can’t they call it like, PKJ or PKK or PKC, Ok PKJ is pain killer for joints, PKK is pain killer for Knee & PKC is pain killer for cuts :D… ok never mind, but I still wonder how they come up with strange names.

So on as England lost the test series they can’t find a better excuse than to talk about Saeed Ajmal’s bowling action. How they forgot that even Hafeez, Umer, Younis & Azhar took the series away from them? Well! They just want to talk about something so people can forget that they lost & Pakistan cheated.

And here is the news:

“Load shedding continues across the country despite claims by Water and Power Minister”

Happy now? This is what we call a Political promise. I thought I will work till Wednesday but wow it did not even worked more than 24 hours. Now if someone will ask a question, the answer will be, “I never said this Tuesday.” :-D

Oh! Another joke of the year…

“PML-N to bring real change, says Nawaz”

Ok ok now stop laughing please :D. I said please. Now come on, no need to fall on the ground & laugh. I know I know, we have more comedians than politicians. I wonder how come a huge crowd listen to them for hours without even laughing or throwing things at them. Ah! My fellow citizens are poor innocent & most stupid to waste their time & listen to the comedy speech with hundreds of old jokes.

Ok now enough of the news. Let us get back to the practical life that laughs at us everyday...

DAY 1006

So the doctor told me to take tablets & no x-ray for the time being. What am I talking about? Did you miss it? Talking about my right hand’s middle finger’s joint pain which only pops-up mostly when I use my mobile or play badminton. So 5 days of medicine and then if nothing happens, I go back & will stare at that doctor. Even with the pain I still play the game. The pain starts and then after a while disappears. So sooner or later it will leave.

"No electricity load shedding from Tuesday".

This is the today’s headline and a wonderful joke. So is it April 1st today? Those who believe this news should also note that the minister never mentioned for how long. It might long till Wednesday. Now see even I did not mention which Wednesday :D.

Today we got 20inch HP LCD(s) in the office & everything is now wide & big. No no, too wide & too big but it feels cool. It is a nice experience so far. I wonder how it would feel to watch a high definition movie on it.

Pakistan at last won & made a history against England and again they were un-predictable during the Cricket series. Yes! They played every well at most of the stages. Although they still need to work on batting as mostly only one or two players were making the score. Anyway! Great result in the end. Although I still hate the way media presents it coz today they are happy with them but once they will lose any next series, they will forget this achievement and will insult these same player in the same manner as they are appreciating them but I do love media as they still are against the current government.

The current government & some others are extremely scared of PTI (Pakistan Tehreek-E-Insaf ). That is why their FB pages got hacked & deleted. Now still they say that FB pages can’t be hacked :). FB should change their policy in this regards, who ever creates the page, that ID should not be allowed to be removed by any other admin but they don’t as I think they want people to lose their hard work.

DAY 1002

Sometimes for me its very easy to let relations go. I try to stop people & to make them understand but till a certain stage. After that, I leave the decission in their court. People in anger taking decission mostly loose a lot but they feel that they won something. I wonder what they won. I never won anything in my anger. Infact I never even won a compitition. Wait wait, I did. I did win one with the power & love of my friends on FB but alone I did not. So we do need friends in life to share our feelings & at some stage they can even guide us better only if we do consider them as our own. I don’t like making brothers & sisters online as they are just words with no relation. People mostly call you bro but when the time comes, they will answer you, sorry I can’t share. Nice, if you can’t share a problem with your so called family then why call me bro? Anyway, that is a topic that I would not like to further discuss.

What a great weekend I had. Lots & lots of finger pain & lots of love & care from my friends around me. Yes! In one way, I am lucky no doubt that I have so many people around me who love me & not just by words, I can actually feel the love in their care. Somehow I will never be able to thank Allah for such blessing. Now come back to finger pain, I discovered that MashaAllah Allah has given me a strong body. I realized when a Badminton Racket hit me so hard on my finger that people around me even heard the sound of broken bones but when GOD has to save you, he does so I was standing thre with no exprassion of pain & was willing to continue the game. I wonder is only my body storng or even my heart. Maybe my body is like a rock & now even my heart is also turing into one. You can feel that from the first para of this blog :). Ouch! And that hurts :).

Someone told me that my dear singer Aamir Saleem told that person that if MIB is getting married, I will be at the marriage ceramony. Wow! Love him for even saying that & yes, I will invite him if someday I get married. I will have a celebrity around me on that function :). Now don’t ask me when I am getting married coz I don’t know & I have no clue :).

Do you know the distance between the Supreme court of Pakistan & PM house in Islamabad? Let me tell you, its on a walking distance but our so called servant of the people of Pakistan (PM) took a huge number of vehicles with him to that location. What he was proving is that he has a huge support but what he did not mention is how much he spent the money of Pakistani People on that huge crowd that travelled. So, Is he a sarvent of a crook? You decide :D

Oh! I just noticed that I completed 1000 days on my blog :)

DAY 995

What a week I had. After like 7 years I had a long chat with my little sis who is no more little but a mother of one cute little girl. I did get a chance to speak to that angel & it was fun. The talks with my sis & some cute discussions on Saturday were memorable.

Than came Sunday & me & some of my FB friends gathered on Skype for a conversation chat & it was a great experience & fun as well. I felt like I could feel them all around me & the way we kept joking, teasing & singing was truly fun. Hope to do that every weekend from now on.

But after that it all started. Fights, fights & some more fights. I think I should have been a wrestler or a boxer as the way I have to face verbal fights every week is as much as hard as being in the ring especially when the opposite person is a female. You know it’s never easy to win from a female in a verbal fight. So Sunday night it started & it kept going till last night. Meanwhile Tuesday another friend of mine joined the fight & then I was 2 against one but it was fun. Thanks GOD it ended coz the more I run away from discussion, the more I get into it.

Anger is my best enemy. When I am in anger, oh GOD!!! I get scared from myself. This is why a number of times I have asked my friends & today via my blog I ask them again, if I am in anger, just leave me alone & don’t involve me in discussions coz they can convert into disaster. This is one reason I avoid all sorts of talks during anger. So if I say I’m angry, you say ok & go :-D

One of my sis is now a Doctor (Ph.D). Wow! That is cool. I even saw her pics & wow, she is cooling beautiful. Unfortunately, only beautiful from outer-side. I wish she could be as beautiful from inside as well. As being my sis, I wish her all the best & hope she joins the family too. Not only coz she is my little sis but only coz she was one year younger & I had my most childhood memories with her coz being of my age, ok one year less, I was close to her.

DAY 981

Me in extreme pain today. I had a page on FB “Oye Chawal Oye” which is no more there. Reasons are unknown. Somehow it is deleted, either by FB themselves or by a hacker. I gave so much to that page. It was like a place where I lived. Worked hard on it & kept it running & in a click of a second they take it away from me. My feelings can’t be expressed here as I had a place to spread smile & now my own smile is gone. Thank you who ever did that. Guess smile was never important. Anyway, no more interest left in Facebook.

Yes! My being quiet & sad wont change a thing, agree but what to say, is I don’t know. I know people would be thinking I’m acting like a child but for me it was a death of a world. For so many years I have been hiding myself behind jokes & not expressing my real self just so that people all over the world can gather at one spot & smile. Although I had never been perfect in it. I have hurt a number of people at the same time so it must be my time to get hurt. Yes! It was noting but a page but a page where I had lots of memories. A page where I had a control. A page where I was known. A page where I met so many wonderful people & a page which is no more. Guess, I am acting like a child.

Well! Life never ends due to a lose but life does end at one stage. Maybe I will start all over again with my admin friends or maybe I won’t. Damn… I don’t know what to write today…

DAY 971

Sometimes I wakeup & feel like I have lost something. Maybe a dream or maybe another day of my life but later when I kept thinking deeper, I found it. It was my beauty sleep :-D

So you thought I will be one of my emotional blogs again? No no, I am a sensitive & emotional person but not always. Mostly I am bad one.

Deep inside me I do have a wish, a wish that I don’t know how to achieve. I did share with a friend & did ask for help but I don’t know if I have lost the chance to achieve it or not. Even the same wish is of my friend but both of us really don’t know which path to walk & which way to achieve it. Don’t you dare take this in a romantic way. No! It’s not about love, romance or a girl. It’s more of a serious issue. NO! Not even marriage… Oh! You and your brains :P. Anyway what ever the wish is, I ask you all to pray so I can achieve it. It is a beautiful wish but I will not share :P :P. I love suspense so you taste it too :D

Nowadays it’s too cold out here or even in here. So even walking outside can freeze your hands, beware :D. By the way, I came to know that entering the New Year government is giving us a gift with increase in tariff of CNG + gas. Wow!!! Thank you so much. Would love that, wont we? I mean what else we want as a country? We don’t want light we don’t want gas, hey, how about we don’t want you the government, can you please process that as well you nincompoops. Already we don’t have electricity in the country but we have huge bills for don’t know what & now it will be the gas. Every month the bills I pay, makes me ask the same question again and again, when did I get all these units??? At the moment I came to know that there are people out on the streets blocking the highways, main roads in anger & mostly traffic is blocked but not to worry my fellow citizens. Very soon there will be no gas & no cars on the streets so no more traffic jam issue. Always be positive :-D

DAY 970

First day of New Year & I think I should write something down at least to welcome this year. Although I don’t think it would be better than before but as always keep your hopes high no matter what, even if u live in the basement :P.

Last year I found so many loving people. Some of them left me behind as they were in a hurry & some of them still bearing my existence. The ones that are gone, I wish them happiness where ever they are & the ones that came into my life, hope you stay happy & healthy. Like every day passes, people passes by. Some leaves a reflection on your life & some leaves you in depression with empty heart & soul :D… but… sooner or later everyone has to leave. Who knows this year might be my turn.

So do I have a resolution for this year? No, I don’t waste time in this stuff coz 99% of us will only plan but won’t act or change. I think I fall in 01% that don’t even plan :D. Yeah yeah, I know I’m unique :D.

So what did I lose & what did I gain in the last year? I won my family back. Yes! The ones that I lost 8 years back, I got them back. I lost a few loving people that were close to my heart but they had to go & I still am not aware of their reasons as they never considered me important enough to explain :D. Guess they were never mine. I did travel a lot within the country. My trip to Tando Adam to meet my Mother after 7 years, my trip to Lahore, Sahiwal, Okara to meet online friends was a memorable. A few friends even visited my city & had a chance to meet them for the first time was a great experience. The visit of my mother & my sister with my cute nieces was a brilliant moment to remember and even my first meeting with my brother in law right here in my city. I think I had a great year. So what if I lost a few, I still have so many more around me to loose :D :P (just kidding). Nah! Don’t want to lose anyone.

Long holiday I had that included Christmas & New Year will now end as one more day to go & then back to office with normal routine work on Tuesday. So before I end this blog, one prayer that I want to make and that is that maybe I had a great year but my country did not so please ALLAH I request you to take away the burdens of corrupt politicians on us. Yes yes, I mean it’s time they should expire or if I should say in direct words………. die :-D.

DAY 952

What a change in my life. Lots of people have left it. Well! Don’t know if it’s good or bad but I know one thing that life goes on and so would I. The ones that have left were never meant to be mine & some I left behind due to certain reasons. My reasons would not be shared here coz a huge number of humans could be against my views but when it comes to my life, I solely take my own decisions & later inform others about it. Sometimes I don’t even inform. The way I see life could differ from your point of view but one thing is for sure that it will end one day or other. Maybe once I leave a few will shed tears, a few will smile for the moment we shared & a few will ask, who the hell was he? :-) I wonder which one will you be.

At last our stupid useless good for nothing President had a minor heart attack. Now I have a question. Does this prove he actually have heart??? Rubbish… A stone can’t have an attack. Now I anxiously wait for the news when it says someone attacked him & he succeeded. :D Ah! What a news that would be. What a day that would be. The best joke was that he said that I am getting better from the prayers of the country. Now maybe he must be talking about America :D

Nowadays I am in a process of getting myself injured, mostly my fingers. Sometimes cuts & sometimes swelling but even then I don’t give up. Yes! Not giving up badminton & cricket. After such a long time I am back in some sorts of sports. So these injuries are my warm welcome. Every day I get a new injury but every day I play. Call it my stupidity or my passion but the question is how would you call if you don’t have my number :D

So was that the reason I was skipping my blogs? No! The only reason is that I am lazy & mostly I don’t find anything new in life to share. If I find something, I can’t share. Now isn’t that cheating? You can understand my laziness from this news that I started writing this blog 10 days back & now today finally I am about to publish it, hopefully :D
Ok ok I will :) Even the first paragraph of this blog points to some old events that might have now been changed and some people who left me came back to me & some might be planning to leave but I have kept it unchanged as people did leave me. I don’t like this. Totally not fair. They leave without even submitting applications for a leave :D I wish I could fine them huge amounts only if they come back then I will :D

DAY 931

Here I am again just after one day of gap. Wow! This calls for a treat. I have been giving so many gaps in my blog but now I feel like sharing things on daily basis but have a slight problem. Every time I start writing, I don’t even know what to write & how to express myself. I know this is so strange that a man who has written so many blogs can’t express himself but its true. Look at this way, in 931 days I have only posted 261 blogs. 670 days were wasted coz I could not find words to express. Oh GOD! Now when I look at the calculations, I feel so sad & disappointed at me for wasting 670 days of my precious life. Well! What’s gone is gone so useless to be sad on the past.

Talking about past, I just read my blog that was written exactly one year back on 22 NOV 2010. Wow! I can’t believe it. I was have same days. Busy week days just like I had a last one & boring EID which I had. In my last blog I mentioned that Just like history repeats itself, I repeat myself too. There you go, it’s now proved. Wow! I was not even expecting this way to prove it but it is proved as the way I was back in NOV 2010, I am still the same. Now how come people say I have changed? I have proved that I am still the same, now can they prove I have changed? :P

This is really fun. Reading your past in your own view, in your own words & then a flashback… takes you back on that day. It’s like visiting your own past free of cost without a time machine. People say don’t stay in your past & live a life but I think time to time I should visit my past to see how I was & how I am now. This can help me in analyzing myself.

DAY 929

When ever I plan to have rest on weekends, it never works so next time I won’t plan my weekends & let my weekends plan me.

Early morning on Saturday when I dropped my family to an Iqbal day function organized by all private schools association & left for home, my family asked me to join them after reaching home. First I excused but then had to go coz it was a request on a request. So I joined them by sacrificing my beautiful sleep. The host of the show was so useless that I can easily say that children on the stage were far better than him. I wonder how come he being a teacher pronouncing Allama Iqbal as Illama Iqbal. So if we have these teachers then I can see a very bright future of students. Some of the schools were really good in dressing, kids walking on the stage & the way they expressed the story of the poems written by the famous poet IQBAL.

Reached home at around 2 & then I wanted to sleep again but just could not as I got involved in other stuff. So no sleep throughout the day but later did manage to have rest.

There were some people in my friend list on Facebook always asking how do I gather so many comments on my post but now let me tell them that their jealousy worked. Now I gather no comments coz 90% of the people I know on Facebook are having trouble coz of my behavior, so it’s getting hard for them to keep relation with me. At one time I had a huge circle of people talking to me & now I don’t have any & the only reason is me. Yes! I have problems like my attitude & even have my reasons to stay away so I don’t mind anymore. Once I was like this. If someone wants to go, I let them go. Then I changed and I always been stopping people so they don’t go but now again I’m the bad guy. Just like history repeats itself, I repeat myself too.

Words and phrases like “monkey crotch”, “athlete’s foot”, “idiot” and “damn”, as well as “deeper”, “four twenty”, “go to hell”, “harder”, “looser” and “no sex” will be banned on SMS in Pakistan including some other 1,695 words. What kind of stupidity is this?? Oh this word also will be banned? What’s wrong with word deeper or go to hell? Damn these idiots are going mad deeper & deeper & these losers should go to hell and something should hit them harder than ever. Oh shit… my whole sentence will be banned now. :-D